"Not really." I countered. The boys motioned for me to continue. "I mean, we're not dating or anything." The boys looked disappointed. Louis's face was expressionless. I don't know what I expected, but I was disappointed. Had I wanted to see him pained? Wanted him to ask me to date him officially? I don't know. I didn't know how I felt about Louis at this point. We had chemistry, that much was clear. But honestly, passion is in the moment. It doesn't last, and all that's left is a vague memory. I didn't want to remember me and Louis's relationship as famous boyband member and slut that snogged him whenever it was convenient.
"Well......ok." Zayn spoke up.
"Do you guys wanna go to bed? We have a photo shoot in the morning." Liam yawned.
"Yeah I'll just be heading out. I'm beat." Louis said, turning to the door.
The boys mumbled their goodbyes, and Louis shut the door behind him. I couldn't just let him leave. It was best to be direct. I knew I would make a scene, but sometimes you have to. I ran out and door and down 3 flights of stairs when I tracked him down in the parking lot.
"Louis! Don't go." I said breathlessly. He turned.
"Why not?" he barked. His eyes were angry. Hurt.
"I'll miss you...." I trailed off.
"Bullshit. Don't say that shit to me. You've fucked with me enough, Don't you think?" He turned back to his car. Still turned away from me, he spoke again. "Why?"
"I don't know." I whispered.
"Neither do I." He got in his car, and I didn't stop him. I just stood there as his car sped out of the parking lot. He didn't give me a second glance. Why would he?
"Maddy?" I turned. It was Niall. "Do you wanna come back inside?" I nodded, and we walked back to Liam's together. He didn't ask what happened, maybe he had heard the whole thing. Or maybe he just didn't want to know.
When we got back to the flat, the boys acted the same way as Niall. We pretty much just went to bed. Sleep was my best escape anyway. But when the morning came, things were fairly awkward. Liam went to get Starbucks for all of us, and the rest of the boys were failing to make smalltalk.
"So Maddy, enjoying the London weather?" Zayn asked for the billionth time.
"If you guys have something to say.....I mean you're all acting wierd." I said.
"Really? I didn't think we were." Zayn inquired.
"Cut the shit." I barked.
"Fine. What the hell happened with Louis?" Niall blurted. I pursed my lips.
"Nothing really. He's just angry with me." I tried to sound casual.
"And why is he angry with you?"
"I don't know." I said tiredly.
"Okay, now it's your turn to cut the shit." Harry said. I sighed.
"Honestly, I really don't know. He got mad when I said we're not dating, which we're not."
"What kinds of things have you guys done together?" Niall continued.
"We only really hang out with everybody else. I mean we watched Rambo together when you were drunk but we barely even knew eachother then. We text, we make out. That's about it." I breathed.
"He likes you. He thinks you're together, maybe not officially, but definetly together. And it pisses him off when you say you're not because he thinks you're playing him." Niall said.
"Playing him?"
"He thinks you don't feel the same way about him as he does about you. So he's being cheated."
Wow.
"You're good." I smirked.
"I know." He laughed.
"Well, what do I do?" I asked them.
"That depends." Harry commented.
"On what?"
"Do you feel the same way?"
"I...I dunno. What should I be feeling?" I wondered aloud. The boys thought about it.
"You should like him. Alot. Like, as more than a friendship sort of way." Zayn piped up.
I didn't know what to think. Yes, I liked Louis. Alot. I liked him enough to have lip sex with him in a broom closet. I liked him enough to sneak out with him last night. But did I like him enough to be anything more than what we were now? Commitment isn't my speciality.
"I don't know. I think so. I mean I like him alot. But I'm just not sure....I need time." I decided.
"I would just tell him. He'll understand if you need to take things slow." Zayn said.
"Or you could just avoid him until they figure things out." Said Harry.
"Sounds like a plan."
