FATED TO LOVE YOU

Part 1

Cast: Jackson, You, GOT7 members

Everyone must have at least have a journal, diaries if that's what most people call it. Record every single thought, matters that important to a person, wish list or a love story. To grow up without a father was really hard on me, later I found writing to be a good healing process to whatever shit I went through at that time, and that includes falling in love and breakups. I would love to believe in happily ever after kind of love exist. Unfortunately, romantic and the most adventurous love story doesn't happen in real life just like how I've seen in drama or movies.

Most of the guys I dated, or try to date during high school, they suppressed my checklist; handsome or exceptionally good looking, sweetheart, romantic, funny, adventurous, nerdy-ish but none of them stay or make me want to stay in the relationship. Till then, my life have been pretty much dating with books.

Yay, how exciting

Sometimes, I do feel there's a huge hole in my heart, empty. Waiting to be filled with something... I don't know, something. Not to forget my best friend, Lily, she is a Korean born American, at least that's how I want to remember her. Her background was pretty much complicated, when she told me about her family tree. I called her jumbo pizza, because she has Brazilian, Mexican, Taiwanese, Irish mix.

God bless her~

So where was I...

19 Dec 2015 | Library

Dear diary,
6 month definitely fast, my mum already nag about finding me a soul mate. She supposed to know her daughter very well by now, that I don't believe in a soul mate, prince charming and anything closely related to that. Not that I was planning to be single till my hair turn gray, I hope I won't. It is just, I'm not ready for it, plus I haven't met 'the one'. I don't even know how 'the one' will be like for me...

With that sentence ends, so does my thoughts.

"Who in the world would fall for a boring girl like me?" I let out a deep sighed

Stroking my pen, twirling it around, stare at the neatly arranged book shelves. My eyes roaming around the huge space, right then, my eyes settled at the sight of a couple, studied together.

So.. Is this the new version of study group?

They were teasing each other sexually. The sight of the male persona whispering something, later make the female bite her lips, close her eyes in sensation. He continues to nibble her ears slowly. Any moment now the room might fill with a loud moan. Ugh! Disgusted

Excuse me, this is a library. Get a room!

"Ahh cho!!" my most pretentious sneeze startled the whole atmosphere, including them. When other existed being start lifting their heads from buried deep inside the book. I smirked in victory and bow politely mianheyo

I don't know if that's my way of saying I'm jealous of what I just saw or what? After all these years celebrating boyfriend-less life, I noticed how much I was so afraid to use the word lonely, or admit it. Because that is how well that word describe me.

"Ahh.." rubbing my hand against my stomach.
"Lunch time"

Speed dial to Lily, I was about to ask her out, but she has an appointment with her supervisor, so I ended going alone. Sighed.