I cant believe what I just did,
To make myself believe,
That things would turn out just right,
That I would endure when I try to fight,
But now I'm forcing laughter,
Faking smiles,
Avoiding you with all my might,
Trying to get you off mind,
And keep asking what is right,
It is hard to stop when you get used to it,
It's like counting every heart beat,
When your inspiration starts to fade,
And the pain in your heart creeps in,
And that your pride you swallow,
And the guilt starts giving in.
I keep saying,
Try to forget that you are falling,
And erase him now in your mind,
But when you cants take it,
All you have to do is count the tide.
From my notes 11/14/11
