I fell asleep in Josh's arms that night, all of us ended up staying in me and Miggy's. There was two spare rooms and three sofa's so we wern't that tight for space.I woke in the middle of the night because there was a knock on the door no one seemed to answer so i removed Josh's arm from around mywaist and made my way downstairs. As i got to the door the knock got louder and faster which made me feel a little scared.I opened the door and two people barged in and ran upstairs shouting "where is he". I took a second look at them it was his ex-girlfriend and her tag along person."JOSH ..RUN " I knew i could of thought of something better to say but i was short on time.I chased after them up stairs as they barged into everyroom waking who ever was in it untill they came to mine and Josh's room.
Josh was already out of bed and heard me when I shouted at him.My heart was in my in my mouth ,what are they gonna do to him i thought.Before my very eyes her tag along person pinned Josh against the wall I screamed and the others came in to the room.Josh kicked him off and told me to get out of the room to let him handle this, but im not leaving him alone here.As they were fighting before me I remembered what was in my drawer that Dad left me before he left, no one is supposed to know about it unless it was an emergency.In my eyes this was an emergency.I sneaked to my drawer and took out the gun,it was a big risk doing so but i had to.They turned around and noticed me holding the gun and they immediatly stopped fighting Josh. Still pointing the gun at them "Why you here" i said.They sat down on my bed and i pivitod the angle of the gun so it was still pointing at them.
Chess:You cant be with Josh !
Me:Why is that?
Chess: Cuz our relationship isnt over in my eyes
Josh: it was over two years ago , and you got to let it go cuz there is no chance of us EVER getting back together.!!!!
Chess: well either you break up or i tell the police about that gun which im pretty sure is illegal for you hunny!
Josh : how about this whole thing stays quiet or i tell about your little drug incident ?
Chess: you wouldnt...
Josh : try me
Chess : fine this stays quiet
Josh : and you stay out of mine and Nicki's life for good
Chess : thats two things i have to do !
Josh: you also gave Nicki a black eye ,i dont think the police will be too happy aboout that now
Chess stared at me for a while i was still pointing the gun at her and her friend.She thought for a while and finally came up with an answer "we forget about everything then and i'll leave ye two alone". I slowly put the gun by my waist and watched them walk out the door. As they left i put the gun away .
Caterina: why the f*uck do you have a gun !!!!
Me : for protection obviously , and you shouldn't give out to me for it since it saved our sorry asses there!!
Caterina: Don't shout at me !
I just didn't reply to her as it would make it worse.The others just stared at me as they never saw this side of me before.I looked at Josh who was in shock and he didn't even make eye contact with me.I couldn't handle anything that was going on so i stormed out of my room into the bathroom.I locked the door and began to cry. I heard them all shout my name and walk down stairs to look for me .When they were gone i went into my room packed a bag with some clothes and money.I grabbed my phone and went out the door.Where i was going was along way away so i took the car.
As i was driving i could see the sun rise .I looked at my phone and it was 8am. I texted Ella to say "i'm going to be gone for a bit ,i'll be back soon".I knew she wasn't going to be happy as I used to do this alot in my childhood ,and by this i mean run away.As i was finished driving to my destination i got out of the car an looked at it , there it was my fathers cabin.Miguel and I used to come here when we were kids with our dads before they went away. I walked into the cabin and it was still the way we left it 3 years ago.I unpacked my stuff and turned on all the electricity.When i was finished i decided to take a quick nap as my other one was rudely interupted by Josh's ex-girlfriend.
I woke up at 2pm,alot later than i planned to wake up.I looked at my phone and i head seven unread messages.
From Ella:when will you be back and where the hell are you were worried sick ?!?!?
From Josh: Are you ok ? We need to talk ,NOW
From Caterina: why did you just get up and leave that really selfish were all worried sick.
From Josh: Please reply i need to know your safe Ella told me your gone ? please reply.
From George: Josh is worried sick please reply we need to know your ok !!
From Josh : She's not going to bother us if thats why your gone its all sorted ....i promise...xx
From Caterina: If your not even going to reply dont bother coming back !! i actually never regretted knowing someone so much in my life!!!
Caterina truly hated me but she doesn't understand. We never fought this bad ...EVER . And Ella doesn't seem happy with me either. And i cant even think about Josh without crying ,i pretty much ruined his life and i haven't even known him that long.I couldn't bare texting them indevidually becuase of what there reply might be so i decided i'd text Miguel.
To Miguel: Tell everybody im fine, and i'll be back soon and that i just need to clear my mind.Also tell them im sorry and i understand why they're mad at me .Tell Josh we'll talk as soon as im back and that i'm especially sorry to him.Tell Caterina i understand where she's coming from and that i agree with her and i'll be out of her life forever now.Also im sorry i left unexpectedly but its hard to explain what going on with me right now because to be honest i dont even know.im really really sorry about everything and i dont expect anyones forgiveness...sorry.
As soon as the message was sent I went outside and sat on the creek beside the lake. I looked at the river and it really calmed me ,it always did when i was a child. I looked at my phone and Miguel had text back.
From Miguel, I know exactly where you are :) and dont worry i'll give you time to clear your mind before i tell them where you are:) I read them the message and they all said they'll talk to you when you get back and to be home soon.Caterina just burst into tears tho ?? anyway be home soon and call me if you need me :) p.s. your at the cabin arn't you ?:)
I read the message over and over especially the Caterina bit ,she's really confusing me .I knew Miguel would understand everything as he was always there for me the previous times i went here.I smiled at his last part before replying "you know me too well ,and thank you Miggy". I put down the phone and stared at the lake and started to think about everything.Why is Josh still with me ? Why is Caterina acting like this? And why does my life have to be like this ? were the thoughts going through my mind .I thought of what Dad use to always say to me "you were given this life because you are strong enough to live it " it put a smile on my face .I sat at the creek for hours and when i looked at the time it was 12:00 am. I went inside washed my teeth and face and went to bed.
