Trigger warning for this chapter
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You practically fell to your knees as you opened the door to Sans and Papyrus' house. They weren't home right now, thank god. Bruises of all colors covered your face, arms and chest. Hot tears ran down your face.
With all the strength you had, you climbed onto the couch and groaned in pain. You sighed as the memories of earlier flooded your mind.
FLASHBACK
"Well, if it isn't the Cutter." Two monsters walked up to you as you were sitting beside a lake in Waterfall.
You started to shake, these two monsters bullied you all the time because you cut yourself sometimes.
"She's lookin paler than usual, did you loose too much blood today?" One of the monsters smirked.
The other monster kicked your shin, making your knees give away, toppling to the ground. Then they started beating the shit out of you, yelling names and leaving marks on every part of your body.
"Attention whore!"
"Cutter!"
"Selfish bitch!"
When the torture finally ended, the monsters went laughing away. You were paralyzed, every part of your body ached with pain. You looked up and saw Sans walking in off the riverboat.
"He can't see me like this..." you thought to yourself.
You used all your strength to run back to their house and do your job before they came back.
End of Flashback
Remembering that Sans and Papyrus would be back soon, you got up and went to the bathroom.
Time to get this overwith
You searched through the mirror cabinet, and there it was.
Your only friend
You picked up the razor and hesitated, holding it a few centimeters away from your arm. You turned on the water and pressed it to your skin.
The pain leaves for a single blissful moment, only to come back once again
Two cuts, becomes four, four become six
Soon, you yelled out in pain and fell to the floor, knocking your head against the toilet. You blacked out before you could see who walked in on you.
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You opened your eyes dazily and felt someone hold your hand. A cold bony finger grazed upon your scars you had made purposefully.
Sans
"kid, please don't tell me you did this..." his face, usually displaying humor and happiness, now has the look of sadness and depression written all over it.
You couldn't meet his eyes, you looked away, full of guilt from your actions.
"you can't do this to yourself...your only hurting others...including me..." you noticed Sans had reflective streams down his sockets.
He had been crying.
Seeing him like this made your eyes fill with tears as they all came down on your cheeks like the rain.
You and Sans sat on the couch little longer, talking about the bullies, your habit, and how you felt. Sans listened the whole time.
"it breaks my heart seeing you do this to yourself..." Sans pressed your scars to his teeth softly, as to give them a healing kiss.
You wince softly when he did so, but you honestly felt better. Sans always listened to what you had to say when no one else would.
"i love you y/n...and i'm saying so much more when i say those three words..."
I know I still feel pain, but no pain is as hurtful as giving it to someone else...
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I wrote this because I got seriously depressed the other day and I actually tried to cut myself...I couldn't draw blood before I had to stop...in this chapter, Sans is speaking exact words from my irl friend,
@LordObsidian
This is to all the readers that self abuse. Don't do it. You're not only hurting yourself, you're hurting the people around you who love and care about you. I still feel terrible for what I did to myself and my friends. If you do have depression and don't think there is anyway to vent it out besides cutting, there's always another solution. I usually vent by writing on Wattpad, drawing, playing Undertale, watching Markiplier and Jacksepticeye, or watching Steven Universe. What's your way of venting?
