*phone rings*
me: hello
Lucas: hey ma, I just got out the house. lemme come scoop?
me: shit. I need to get ready!! give me ten minutes I should be done.
Lucas: alright. I'll be there in ten.
He caught me at the wrong time. I look like complete shit. didn't even give me time to introduce myself but, my name is Jade and I'm 17 years old. I know this is a boring intro just like other stories but there really isn't any other way I could say this.
lucas and I have been dating since freshmen year and this is our last year of highschool. we're both going to different collages and it shatters my heart every time I think of it. we live in San Diego California. the place to be right?
wrong..
we live in the more ghetto side of town and I can't wait to leave. Lucas has been involved with gangs left and right, there really isn't any way to leave them either so we've had to deal with drive by's, post ups, you name it.. it sucks but I would risk my life for him.
Our plan was to move to L.A soon but we aren't the wealthiest teenagers so it's a little tough to just get up and leave like that.
We go to Stanley High school. home of the Bulls. haha yea right. our team mascot is a bull but our football games show that were obviously the opposite of Bulls. basically saying, we suck horribly. that's why it was a bit rough for Lucas to get a good football scholarship so he had to pay most of his collage classes off. same with me. Our volleyball team sucked so there was no open opportunities for scholarships along the line with me.
but enough with that boring stuff.
I let my dark brown hair down and run my fingers through it. very curly and notted up, curly heads can relate. I throw on a jacket from Victoria secret I got last week for valentines from Lucas.
should I wear jeans or leggings?
ehh.. jeans are uncomfortable.
leggings it is. I quickly fit my feet into a pair of nikes because I don't want him to wait outside for to long.
and I'm fully ready.
as I look into my mirror which hangs next to my window, I see a black infinity pull up.
my baby boy.
I grab my I phone and jog down the stairs. my brother wasn't home, neither was my dad so I took my keys so I could lock the door.
shutting the door behind me and locking it I hear a flirty whistle coming from the car that's parked in my drive way.
"ooooo shawty look fine in them leggings!!" Lucas says in a slight high pitch voice from his car with his hand dangling outside the window.
I laugh and look down as I walk off my porch and into the drive way.
He unlocks the car and I open the door and get in.
"Hey baby!!" I say in excitement as he's backing out of my drive way.
I always get a good ticklish feeling in my stomach every time I see him. he truly makes me beyond happy. this boy makes my whole soul light up.
his brown eyes glare at the rear view mirror then he looks at me and puts his right hand on my thigh.
"Hey mama. how was your morning" he says with a kind smile as he's focused on the road.
"hmm, it was good. I just haven't had breakfast." my stomach grumbled as I said that sentence and he gave me a silly look.
embarrassing...
"I could tell you didn't have breakfast, that stomach growl was louder then my car engine" he laughs when he says that last sentence.
OH MY GOD EMBARRASSING....
"not funny I'm really hungry Lucas" I whine. he's always making fun of me or roasting me. ALWAYS!!
"awh okay I'm sorry. let's go get you somethin'n to grub on right after I make this quick drop off" he said those few last words very lowly..
I thought he quit all this.. my blood begins to boil. "after I make this quick drop off " kept replaying in my head. I thought he quit all this drug dealing. I can't do this anymore. he's going to get killed one day.
I tried to stay calm but I couldn't.
"ARE YOU SERIOUS?" I yell at him and slap his hand off my thigh. or at least try to, his grip just got tighter sending chills through my body, quickly calming me down.
"look, I know you hate this. and I hate it too. but baby times are so hard now. I need the money so I can buy your spoiled ass stuff and to help my momma out at the house." he said in a very loving tone to kiss up to me but I didnt fall for it.
"LUCAS I DONT CARE! IF TIMES ARE SO HARD GET A FUCKING JOB!!! YOU CAN GET KILLED DOING THIS!! ... don't drop it off. and I'm being dead ass serious" I yell at him. I get so frustrated and annoyed when he does shit like this.
"Jade listen to me. if I don't have this dropped off by one, thirty.. I get my house shot up by Big T. my grandma is staying with me and so are my little cousins. I can't have that happen"
Big T, the biggest yet lowkey drug dealer of San Diego. Lucas used to work with him. Until Lucas didn't smuggle drugs to L.A like he was supposed to do according to his task, then Big T shot his house up.
But when Lucas worked with him, he was baller status honestly, he made so much money just in one day. but I'd rather him be on minimum wage with a safe life then make fifteen grand in one drop off and risk your life getting shot that same day.
"what the hell.. why are you working with Big T again?!?!"
"baby calm down. he's the only guy who can get me paid less than an hour. bare with me Jade. this is my last drop off I promise"
"no this isn't. you've said that so many times. you were doing just great and now your going to fuck your life up again!!!?"
"thirty grand Jade. I'll be making thirty grand off this drop off. after this, I'll take you to a good ass breakfast joint then to the mall. baby just please. I have to do this. there's no backing out I already gave him my word."
"I'm not hungry anymore" I look out the window. He discusses me when he does this type of shit.
After fifteen minutes of a quiet ride, we pull up to this rink-a-dink broke down house.
"this is the place" I laugh in disgust and sarcasm.
he smacks his teeth because he notices my rude tone but I let it be known.
he takes a deep breath, a breath of annoyance. I was looking at the window but I'm sure if I was looking at him, I'd see his eyes roll.
"yes Jade this is the place. stay in the car. don't move until I get back or if someone comes to the car." he gives me these orders like a give a shit.
"ok" I say bluntly, not looking at him once.
