A Suicide Note 'Poem'

A Suicide Note Poem Part 2

Let me just say the first note cleared everything for you, however I thought maybe a second one would probably make it much more clear that I'm taking this very seriously, that this isn't a joke. Like I said how do I even write a suicide note? How do I know that my life will ever be the same if people will always treat me like I'm invisible, like I'm not alive, like I don't even exist, I'm completely nothing however in reality I'm still here breathing the same air as the people who bully me who don't even care about me, in this world called reality there actually are people who do care but guess what I want everyone to understand not 5 or 1 but everyone.

Remember when I said 'Please don't pull up my sleeve' but you did because you didn't believe me, let me guess your thinking about why would she or anyone or someone ever do this. I'll let you have a couple of minutes to make you think about this... Well you say 'Your just doing it for attention' your absolutely hilarious because I don't do it for that, I did it because no one doesn't pay attention to me, no one looks but when people laugh and smirk when you trip and fall up the stairs, I'll have a big scab on my knee. Look at the blood it's dark and red dripping down my calf the pain is deadly if only this was my wrist, I be sitting in my own blood.

How do I even tell you, I miss you? If I wasn't alive... I'm not even sure if I'll be here in a year or in a month or so because lately life has been a real you know what, I can't stand it anymore and I've fought to live this life and I'm sorry but I got arrested for killing someone guess who it was don't say it was you because your still alive stomping on my thombstone, yeah it was me, you dumb fool, yeah I see you smiling, go ahead say that I'm nothing, worthless, white trash, emo freak, ugly, fatty you know what I don't care anymore I'm giving up, I'm done caring, I'm done loving, I'm done fighting, I'm done living, I'm done with you, I'm done with life. I'm just completely done with everything but for those who do honestly love me I'm sorry you have to go through this, this pain wasn't meant for you, it was meant for those who didn't care for a moment of my 16 years of my life. I appreciate those who stuck and stayed by my side I'm not here to hurt you I'm here to hurt the other one, I'm sorry everyone who had to lose me this way.

How do I take everything back, how do I take back a regret that I wish I never took why did I do this why did I ever committe suicide, yes I wanted to end the pain, the suffering that I had to go through but what about you? The one who's reading this I'm sorry, your the reason why I'm nuts now regretting this. Please forgive me 'I'm sorry please keep me in your heart I'm sorry I love you'. How do I wrote a suicide note and regret ever doing it because right now I need you to bring me back to life I need you right now please can you hear me say 'I miss you' answer me. I reached out to you and touched you, you didn't feel that did you. No please don't leave me I have more to say...