only us. / jacob sartorius

Worried (7)

I wake up to the ear piercing beeping, my lovely alarm clock. My mom was pretty pissed about me throwing the other one out the window. Without thinking, I got up and threw the new one out the window, crashing as it hit the ground. I laughed and plopped on my bed.

Today, is the day of the dance. The last two days have been miserable. I haven't talked to Kailey or Jacob since the incident. There has been endless texts from Jacob, trying to ask me what's wrong. I haven't replied to any, I'm trying to convince myself to move on.

I dragged myself out of bed to get ready. The dance was after school, starting around 6:30. I wobbled to the bathroom, straightened my hair, brushed my teeth, and applied makeup. I used loads of foundation to conceal the wounds on my body. I cringed everytime I touched them. Memories rushed through my head, somehow I fought back the tears. In less than 30 minutes, I was ready for school. I grabbed the usuals, and headed out.

About 7 minutes into walking, a steady voice shouted my name from behind. I turned around and caught a glance of Jacob running towards me. I turned back around and headed forward. I gulped as he caught by my side. He grabbed my arm, causing me to flinch in pain. He loosened his grip as he remembered my bruises. Our matching green/hazel eyes met.

"Please, give me five minutes to talk." He said desperate.

"Ask away." I replied quietly, letting in.

"Jenna, what happened?" He asked deeply. I couldn't do it. I broke down, right in front of him. He pulled my into a tight hug, I was tiny compared to him. Sparks bursted throughout me as he rested his chin on my head. I cried into his shoulder for a good ten minutes, until I calmed down. The school was in our sight, and Jacob turned his head slightly and spotted his friends laughing and pointing at us. I quickly wiped the running tears and mascara off my face, and acted as if that never happened.

"I have to go, we will talk later." He said reassuringly and somewhat emotionless, he sounded like the principal. I slightly giggled at my random thought as I watched him jog off.

I walked into the school filled with chattering students in the hallway. I dreaded today, I had no idea how it would turn out. I smiled as Blake walked up to me. He smiled back, but it faded as he noticed I had been crying. He wrapped his arms around my waist, and picked me up so my legs could wrap around his waist. We stood there hugging for about a minute, he kissed my cheek as he set me down. Did I feel any sparks? I said in my mind.

No.

I shook it off as he asked me a question.

"Talk to me. Why were you crying?" He asked demanding. I shook my head as he got a little angry.

"Babe, tell me. I can help." He said again calming down. I sat there in silence. He stormed off at the fact I wasn't replying when he was trying to help. I felt a little bad, but he couldn't force me to reply. I could have just lied, but I was being respectful and didn't. I rolled my eyes annoyed and went to class. How come I'm not good enough? One little mistake, and everything goes downhill.

All of my classes, all of my friends tried to get answers out of me. I was too broken to even think straight. I've never been more horrified by something. After everyone gathering around me, pressuring me to talk, I sprinted out of the classroom. I went to the bathroom and slid my back down the wall. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I sobbed as someone walked in. I looked up, seeing Kailey approaching me holding her arms out. I got up and ran into her arms. I told her everything. Everything. Now she was the only person who knew. I gave Jacob a little hint, but not the full story. And I feel a lot better to know I have my other half back.