Stitches

Ten

When we got back to the hotel, Crisfer and Popo were still out and Spencer wasn't in his normal mood. Well, thanks to me. I wonder what Craite's reaction will be if I tell him these things. I am a little bit surprised by Spencer's story but he's brave enough to change his way of life, although he also got the guts because of Dr. Thompson's support.

"Are you hungry?" He asked me.

"Why are you so mad at me Spencer?"

"Because of what you did to yourself November!" He snapped.

"I'm fine now." I replied absentmindedly.

"People will leave you at a certain period of time and you can't run around overdosing yourself with meds just to let them stay. I told you, you need help, the hell with your awareness about your condition! It doesn't make sense to me! If you know what to do with yourself then why aren't you doing it?" He was sweating and furious but I don't know why I didn't felt scared of him.

I stood close to his side and touched his hand. I wanted to calm him and to tell him don't worry about me because I do feel fine now.

"What Vem?"

"Why do you care so much about me?"

"What kind of question is that?" I heard Popo's voice behind us.

"We care because we are family." Crisfer adds.

"Exactly!" Spencer looked directly into my eyes.

"I will never do it again." I shook my head wanting them to know that I wanted to stop this conversation.

"We'll never know because suicide doesn't really occur during those times that people are depressed. It often happens months after because the person prepares herself before executing the action which I know you also knows that." Crisfer walked towards me.

"And your point is?"

"Are you sure for not planning on killing yourself soon?"

"No."

"Then why won't you seek help?" Spencer asked again.

"Because I don't need any help."

"Prove that to Dr. Thompson then." He demanded.

"Fine! If that will make you all feel relieve then I will. Are we done talking?"

I'm pissed and I want to get out of here. Popo grabbed me and embraced me tightly on his chest.

"Vem, calm down. We're done talking. Okay?" I found myself sobbing as he caress my hair.

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"What did she do when Drew broke up with her?" Spencer asked Crisfer while Popo is still comforting me. Spencer wanted to go out for some fresh air.

"She was stupid. She grabbed a knife. She was drunk that night. We were really scared. She was crying but she is holding the knife tightly we can't get it out of her hand. She said that she will put it directly into her heart. Good thing Popo saw this medicine, nubain in her room, so we did some action scene just to inject it to her then she passed out."

"Damn it, she really keeps some dangerous drugs in her room."

"But now, when she met Craite, she'd been acting differently."

"How?"

"You can tell he's attracted to her and vice versa but Vem's attachment seems to be off the hook when it comes to him."

"It's superficial then."

"Maybe it's better that way, don't you think?"

Spencer just shrugged his shoulder.