I Never Thought ( Harry + Anna)

Chapter 21

Harry P.O.V

I couldn't sleep that night. Every time I tried I just found myself wide awake looking at Anna sleeping, looking so small in the many blankets. All I could think about was the kid thing. I wanted kids of course and I wanted kids with her, but them not being ours is kind of upsetting. Like I know it's mine but it's not really mine, you know what I mean? I would never leave her over something like this. Something that has a such a simple solution but, she keep it from me for awhile. I get like a month but we have almost been dating for 4 months now and we have talked about marriage and kids more then once. I just don't understand why she would keep it from me so long. Was she scared I might leave her if I knew? Or was it something else. I finally feel asleep at 4. I heard Anna get up and ready for work at 6, so I got up and made breakfast will she was showering.

"Oh, Harry you didn't have to do this." She said when she walked into the living room/kitchen.

"No problem, love. You got to eat right?" I said as she sat down. I place a plate with a pancake and bacon.

"You know, you are like the best?" She said beaming at me.

"Yes I know, now eat." I pointed to her food and she put a pieces of bacon in her mouth and smiled. She ate everything and then brushed her teeth and ran out kissing me goodbye.  I sat around in the flat for a bit then decided to go out for a bit. I walked down stairs to my car and drove to a little place to get coffee. After that I thought I'd walk around the park. Most girls who liked One Direction were in school right now so I probably wouldn't bump into any Directioners here.

I sat down on a bench and pulled out my journal. I took it with me everywhere. I opened it up and started it write

Dear Journal,

I'm staying with Anna now. I've missed her so much as you can tell from the three pages I wrote about her that where covered in tears and also a little bit of blood. I just need to be near her, to touch her. Some times I wonder if she's even real. I wonder if I'm really in a coma and she is just a drug induced imagination. I wonder if I might wake up and she would be gone. I would surely die of the depression after words. She cant ever leave me or it would end me. I just love her so much. I want everyone to know how much I love her. I want to go out to the public about her and I. I just cant go on like this. The secrets. I'm truly, madly, deeply in love with her. Hey, that sounds like a good song. Let me write that down.

Am I asleep, am I awake, or somewhere in between?

I can't believe that you are here and lying next to me

Or did I dream that we were perfectly entwined?

Like branches on a tree, or twigs caught on a vine?

Like all those days and weeks and months I tried to steal a kiss

And all those sleepless nights and daydreams where I pictured this,

I'm just the underdog who finally got the girl

And I am not ashamed to tell it to the world

Truly, madly, deeply, I am

Foolishly, completely falling

And somehow you caved all my walls in

So baby, say you'll always keep me

Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you

In love with you

Should I put coffee and granola on a tray in bed

And wake you up with all the words that I still haven't said?

And tender touches, just to show you how I feel

Or should I act so cool like it was no big deal?

Wish I could freeze this moment in a frame and stay like this

I'll put this day back on replay and keep reliving it

'Cause here's the tragic truth if you don't feel the same

My heart would fall apart if someone said your name

And truly, madly, deeply, I am

Foolishly, completely falling

And somehow you caved all my walls in

So baby, say you'll always keep me

Truly, madly, crazy, deeply in love with you

I hope I'm not a casualty,

Hope you won't get up and leave

Might not mean that much to you

But to me it's everything, everything

Truly, madly, deeply, I am

Foolishly, completely falling

And somehow you caved all my walls in

So baby, say you'll always keep me

Truly, madly, crazy deeply in love (in love) with you (with you),

In love (in love) with you (with you)

In love (in love) with you (with you)

With you, oh! 

Wow, it's perfect. It reminds me so much of me and Anna's relationship. I need to show this to Simon. I got to go, I'll write in you later.

Harry <3

I got off the bench and ran to my car. I drove to my flat and grabbed my guitar and strummed a tone. It was perfect. A simple tone with a simple song. I called Simon and sang it too him. He loved it and said it would be perfect for the new album. He said we can record it when everyone got back. I couldn't wait though. I called guys and sung it for them. They all loved it and I asked if everyone could come down so we could sing it when me and Anna come out into the public. They all agreed and Niall said he was going to come out with Sydney and Liam was coming out with Ally. Niall and Liam where both in L.A and Louis and Zayn where with there families. They would be here in a week. Just a week and everyone would know how much I love Anna. Truly, madly, deeply in love with her.