She is a worldwide young superstar performer. She is beautiful, famous, rich and young. She has everything: Money, designer clothes, supportive friends, celebrities acquaintances, a loving family. But sometimes she asks herself "Do I really want thi...
I spent my week-off hanging out with Khloe and writing songs and sometimes recording parts of them. Then I had to start my promoting tour like James calls it. I've been in UK, Sweden, Spain, Italy, Germany and Sweden. And now I'm in the private jet heading to Houston since tomorrow is my birthday, then I'll have to go back to France then Russia, China, India and finally Brazil. Kim, Khloe and Rihanna have been asking me about my plans for my birthday. They were disappointed when I told them that I won't have a party but they understood. I arrived home and there were of course paparazzi even though it's almost 3am. I greeted my parents who were happy to see me after such a long time. I went to my old room to freshen up and go to sleep. My dad came in and brought me his famous hot chocolate. I thanked him and sat on my bed with him following. "I didn't have the chance to tell you this but I am really proud of the woman you became. I just want you to know that you along with your sister are the best things that ever happened to me and your mom. I know that you want your real parents to be with you while you are living your dream but I hope that we were there for you while you needed us." By the end of his speech, I was already in tears. "Don't say that again Dad! I know you are not my biological parents but you are my parents who took me in and my sister and helped us and treated us as your own kids. I Am your daughter and no one in the world can change that. So raise your head high and if someone asks you, I AM your daughter." I hugged him and felt safe in his fatherly warm embrace. After sometime, I felt wetness on my shoulder and I knew he was crying. He pulled back from the hug and whipped his tears while clearing his throat. I chuckled and teased him. "If I didn't know you better, I would say you are gettin' softer and softer!" "Come on young lady, it's time to sleep. Tomorrow's a big day. You are finally becoming 18 so you won't need us anymore." With that he made his way towards the door. I stopped him by saying "Daddy?" He turned around and looked at me "I will always need my family with me until the day die." I said with a warm smile which he returned before saying "And we will all be there for you. Goodnight sweetheart!" With that he closed the door. I couldn't sleep so I checked my social media to see fans posting birthday wishes to me and I was so glad that I have amazing fans even though I just started my journey. I read some of the comments on my latest picture. " Alyssa : OMG!!!! You look amazing!!!!!<3 <3 <3 And Happy birthday!!!!
" Disconnected : Happy birthday Bey!!!!! I love you and you are GORGEOUS!!!!!"
I kept reading different comments until I got a message from Justin.
Happy Birthday! Sorry for not talking or hanging out these past weeks. I was just busy with Selena. <3<3<3 Love. -Justin
I didn't feel like replying and decided to sleep since I have to get up at 7am. With that I slept like a baby.
The next day, I woke up at 7am, got ready, had breakfast with family then took my car and drove to the graveyard where my real parents are buried.
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When I arrived, I went to the graveyards that have JOSEPH EUGENE CARTER and ZOYA ORLOV CARTER. I put the flowers I bought them down and sat in front of them. "Hey mom and dad! I miss you so much. Today I'm finally 18. It has been more than 6 months since I saw you. I'm sorry, I've been busy making my dream come true. I'm finally a singer. I traveled all around the U.S. and even went to Europe. London , Madrid, Rome, Berlin and Stockholm were amazing. I wish you were there with me. But I'm so excited because in 2 days, I'll go to Paris, where you spent your honeymoon." I whipped the tears that fell from my eyes. "I just feel lonely even with all what's happening in my life. I want to have you guys with me and hear you say how proud you are and support me. Enough with tears" I chuckled and continued "I wrote a song about you guys and I can't wait to finish it. You'll be the first to hear it. I just want you guys to be proud of me. I NEED you to be proud of me!" I sobbed and continued crying until a voice interrupted me. "They ARE proud of you sis." I turned around to find my sister Kayla holding flowers with a smile on her tear-struck face. She came to me and hugged me. We stayed like that for a while until I asked her. "Not to ruin this moment or something, but why are you here?" She laughed and said. "It's my favourite sister's birthday, silly!" " I am your only sister you stupid dumbass!" "Don't be so sure missy." We laughed and then I saw that it's already 10am, so I had to be at my next stop, St. Marie Orphanage. It's where I spent 2 years. I always come here to stay with the kids and help Momma Jackie. I consider her as my second mom because she took us and took care of us. She was also one of my grandma's friends. When I arrived to the orphanage, I looked for Momma Jackie and found her playing with the children. I smiled remembering all the times she played with me and told me that it will all be okay. I went to where Momma Jackie was and hugged her. I felt her tense in my embrace until she recognised me and took me in her arms with a warm smile and joy tears. "I missed you Momma Jackie!" I told her with hot tears pouring from my eyes. "Oh my baby!!! I missed you too! Happy birthday! You're a woman now. I made a birthday cake for you, I knew you were coming because you wouldn't miss it for the world!" She said while leading me to one of the couches. "Hey! I'm starting to get jealous here!!" Kayla called after us. Momma Jackie then noticed her and took her in a bone-crushing hug. We talked and talked and played with the kids who were happy to see me.
