Tears were shed today. Tears were definitely shed.
Today was such an amazing day. It was white. My siblings got to stay home from school cause of the snow (I am homeschooled but my siblings are not) we played bored games altogether for a while–that rarely happens, it was great–and then we went to the mall and the library. Seriously, I was happy. Then there were phone calls. Lots of phone calls. They weren't good ones. My dad got home and by then we were already done eating. We were all sitting at the table, and then, there were words. Scary ones. Words that made me want to cry. I really wanted to cry. I didn't know how this prefect day could have turned into this? I went upstairs and then a while later I was called to come down. There were lots of apologies and then, there was a speech. There were lots of tears. I learned that the Lord puts you through things that make you think, 'why am I with the Lord if he is putting me through this?' Well, that's why. It's cause he loves you. He puts us through these things to give us our best chance. If he wanted to just snap his fingers and make everything perfect without going through all that terrible stuff he would have. But no. He wants us to go through that stuff to get us closer to him. To learn and realize things. If there were only open doors, you wouldn't know which one to walk through. He has closed doors so that when you find the open one, you won't wonder if this is right one to go through, and trying to find that open door takes time, so be patient. What I had learned tonight, is that no's are the biggest yes's. Remember that. I also learned that things aren't always fair you don't always get what you want, and to complain that not getting something isn't fair, is terrible, because, Jesus died on that cross for us and that was not fair, and he didn't complain. Today was an up and down day, but at the end of this day, my family is one million times more close and faithful. Even if the good thing doesn't come right after the terrible thing, don't give up. The good will come. Trust the Lord.:)
