Right now, I just feel like writing. So, I am literally just going to write my heart out. Write exactly what I feel, with the most detail I can get out of myself. Read, don't read, skim over it, I don't care. I am just going to write.
Honestly, yesterday was crap. I hate myself for saying that though, because, yesterday wasn't all just crap. Yesterday was amazing. We went to church and God was amazing. We ate dinner as a family; grandma, grandpa, cousins, aunts, uncles, brothers, sisters, and parents. We all took our blood pressure just for fun! Yah it was weird and crazy but, we were together and laughing; our entire weird family laughing. It was beautiful and unforgettable. We played the bean boozled (I probably spelled that wrong) challenge and surprisingly, nobody threw up. That was great too. We talked. We just flat out talked about, I don't even remember what, but we talked. Very nice. Once again, we laughed. It was literally an amazing day. Why was it crap? I will tell you. Someone in my family, later that night, had to go to the hospital. I thought to myself, "but why God? He was perfectly fine? Why?" I was really confused. It was so sudden. But the more I thought about it, I felt like I just needed to stop complaining. A lot of people in my family right now are injured or are having health problems. My family is falling apart. But are they? Maybe we aren't falling apart? Maybe we are falling back together? I end up thinking to myself that, maybe God is putting us through this, so that we as a family, can get closer to him. You know, I really need to stop arguing with God when things like this happen. God always has a reason. I need to love him more and thank him more, instead of, complaining about the stuff that he makes us go through, God knows what is best for us. Now, back to the 'crap day'. If one little thing goes wrong in someone's day, that automatically ends up as there entire day. That will literally be the only thing that they will tell you. 'I had and amazing day yesterday, but because I had one thing wrong, I actually had a crap day'. NO! THANK YOU GOD FOR THE AMAZING DAY YESTERDAY!!! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! There is no room for me to complain about what had happened in the end. I trust the Lord that he will do what is best for my family. I can not have fear. It is very, very hard, but I can't. The Lord says 365 times in the Bible to not be afraid. You either believe all of it or, none of it. The Lord says not to be afraid so, I will not be afraid. I had an amazing day yesterday end of discussion. As for today,
I feel so happy:D so, just, happy!
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I want to thank booklover466 , you were really there for me and you made me want to think this way, instead of being mad at the Lord. You made me feel happy. Thank you<3
