I'll Be Over Here

Ok Then

**FROM NOW ON, All OLD INITIALS WILL BE NORMAL WHILE NEW FRIEND INITIALS WILL BE IN BOLD**

1/12/16

As previously mentioned, "O" called me out for being annoying and having done something to piss her off. Then she kicked me out of our "friends" group chat. Once I asked her what I did wrong, she responded with "nothing."
Like what the hell man, that's not a sufficient answer.

Well, today was... peculiar. The morning started off with hanging out with my long-term friend, "K". We were sing and dancing around to our favorite spongebob toons. It reminded me of when I was younger and we used to live next to each other, causing a bunch of goofiness and getting into trouble. I really miss those care-free times when I could just walk next door and hang out. But now, after my parents' divorce, I had to move away, causing a major disconnect between me and "K".

Recently, me and "K" have reconnected and hung out a lot more.Unfortunately, she is two years older than me and I feel awkward hanging out with her junior friends.

So, back to the story, I hung out with "K" and then I had to head to class. In between some periods, I happened to pass by "O", who only gave me her signature eye roll and "accidentally" ran into me.

Up until lunch, I had gotten dirty glares from nearly everyone in the group. I had talked to "E" (in the group) and she told me that she didn't know why "O" was mad at me, but she was lying, I could see it in her eyes.

It hurts to know that the people I thought I could trust the must are the people I can trust at all.

During lunch, I jamming out with the people I had talked to yesterday, the new group. They were all very nice, welcoming, and HILARIOUS.

But, all good things must come to an end. Some of my "closest friends" felt the need to pass by and roll their eyes while scoffing at me. WHAT IS THIS? SIXTH GRADE?? The others just stood from a distance, glaring. As I looked among my "closest friends" I could see them mouth my name. Wow, real mature guys.

My new friend, "M" noticed that I was sad. We had a heart to heart while I explained to her how my "friends" we're treating me and how I felt about it. She told me that I was a great person and that I didn't deserve this (god bless her wonderful soul).

"M" and my other new friends "P", "C", "EC", etc. all made me feel so welcome and as if I had been there friend for years.

Throughout the whole day, I couldn't help but feel unworthy of my new friends and all the happiness they bring. I thought that someone as annoying and unattractive as me didn't deserve friends at all. I felt like I was betraying the "friends" I already had.

How in the world do I feel guilty ? I did nothing wrong.

Again, I really need guidance. Any and all advice helps. Thank you.