Cheers Fucker

Today was a good day, if not the best
But what am I saying? Quite the best.
After too long, I've had my due
But what am I saying? Why do I rue?

Look at them, look at those crowds
Look at them trying to live
Look at all those who wronged me
Look at those who have so much to give.

So much to live for
So much to give
Yet what do they do?
Why do they live?

Hate me not for resenting their existence
I have my reason, I have no reason.
It's not as much resenting as my fear
Not as much fear as my repentance.

Not so much repentance as being amused
These foolish people, this cattle abused.
They search for their fodder, they run for their lives
They seek for themselves, using or being used.

Look at them, look at them all.
They run, they hide, they cower in fear
They loathe, they envy, they sing and they dance
They dance, oh yes, through this hellish nightmare, in a trance
For no one would dance if they knew,
If only they knew
This is all a farce, a game mere.

I think, I think, I think
I think too much and I laugh
I laugh at these misled flocks
I laugh at their ticking clocks.

Yet today was good, somehow so
People spoke to me who never would.
I was surprised and amused by this feel
For once they were nice, pretending though.

Not the usual talk, not the usual smirk
They wished me well and better
I smiled though they could have been bluffing
But so was I, that thought did irk.

It's funny how these thoughts find their way
Right into my mind now
Not sad, not at all
Just amused at how.

How strange, people drown themselves
In this dump we call life
In this Hell we call earth
In this Hell we call home
In here we roam, in this tiny dome.

Those smiles, they're fake
And so are those words, that flow like the sweetest stream
Give me something real, even the tiniest thing would do
For that, what would you take?

Look at the Lady who controls our fates
Look how she bends them
Look how she snickers and smirks
As she twists them to suit her tastes.

Look at her, as she favors the knave
The bad, the worse and the depraved
The ugly ones, the ugly souls
All her pleasures they have.

Look at God, look at him
If he exists, look
Look at him and you shall see
Worse than the lady he shall be.

I shan't have faith, I have none
In anything, I am thus disillusioned
Not in the fairy tale, not in the Prince
I shan't have faith anymore, rather
For I have run out long since.

Amused, bemused and certainly used
I stand and gaze over all that there is
Here it is, that I called my world
Like a tiny dome, an answer deduced.

Deluded, secluded, I cave in on myself
Reclusive, conclusive, I shift my eyes to what I can't see
Belated, elated, I finally see it
Amused, bemused, and finally used.

This world, my world, I don't belong
I don't blend, I don't stand out
I can't speak, not when I know
These are all lies, now I know.

The people, their smiles
They smile to show
Their words, they press
They speak to impress
All that they have, they have to show
They wear to dress, to stress, to impress.

All that there is, that's all a lie
There is no hero, no one's saving you
He has killed and run away with all on which he laid his eye
Now there is nothing for you to do.

Today was a good day, despite knowing all this
Sure it was, it had to be
The day I was born, the day I saw light
The day I lost my real sight.

The day a couple was happy, the day a new one cried
The day I got my first bike and rode with Gwen.
The day I first sang, the day I loved and laughed
If only I knew these were lies then.

So misled, so misled
I fear I have done the same
Been an imposter, done what I hate
Hypocrites that we are, we're all to blame.

This is the day the flame was lit
This is the day I cried
But since that day I have walked many a mile
Strange, for today I smile.

Strange, though stranger I have seen
For a while I had lost my sanity, where had it been?
In this pitiful dump we call our home
A star called earth, a small dome.

Like a nomad I did roam, I did
Travelling as I searched
Searching, looking everywhere
Looking everywhere for home.

I have searched, I have failed
I sigh, no regrets, at least I managed to sail
No regrets? Regrets galore
I couldn't live, I couldn't explore.

Standing here, I see it all
This pitiful dump we call our home
This star called earth - I am really amused
Thank you God, I'm amused, bemused, and thoroughly used.

This is the day I was born
This is the day I cried
This is the day I shall go out
I'm amused, thanks for the ride.

The flame will go out, it's just one flame
With one last smirk, I'm ready to go.
A few seconds, I can be that kind
I can give myself that, it shall end in my mind.
With an amused smirk, the breeze of my mind
The flame will go out, I don't mind.

For this is the day I was born
This is the day I cried
This is the day I will go out
But this time, I smiled.