*FAITH*

CHAPTER 3

AN: half of this is continue of chapter 2 because watt pad fucked up surrey:(

Alexas P.O.V

I can see Grayson's jaw clench when he saw sam but he didn't do anything

"I think i should go" said Grayson while standing up

Great he is fucking leaving because of sam

"um yeah sure" i said as we walked to the door

As Grayson put on his shoes i was admiring him, i know it sounds creepy but he is just so damn fine and kind

"see you at school on monday" he waved as he got in his car

i just gave him a big smile and waved

when i closed the door and turned around i saw Sams friends are leaving

oh god no i hope he leaves me oh fuckkk

"why the fuck was he here" said sam while crossing his arms, i didn't answer because i was scared shitless

"I SAID WHY THE FUCK WAS HE HERE" he yelled as he slapped me so hard i fell back and I'm pretty sure thats going to leave a mark

"i-im s-sorry" i whispered

"JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO TO YOUR ROOM" he screamed then kicked my side

i quickly got up and ran upstairs to my room, well our room.

I closed the door and broke down crying

i know what to do to make me fell better for a while or maybe forever..

i went to the bathroom and got out the small box i had hidden in the corner if the mini closet.

in this box is a bunch of razors, I've had theses since i was 12 because i was so depressed at that age i used to cut but now I'm 1 year clean, the depression is not fully gone but i know if i stay with sam and he stays treating malice this i know it will come back and probably worse

i promised myself not to do it again but i can't take this anymore

without eve realising i made my first cut

"1.." i whispered while a tear slid down my face

"2.."

"3" i cut my third one

"4"

"5" i said as i let a breath of relief out and made my last cut.

i opened the tap and let the cold water run over my fresh cuts, i didn't even flinch because i was in pain mentally and physicaly. After i dried my hand i wrapped it in a white band aid and put the box back

I went to sit on my bed and sit on my computer sam came in. He sat on the bed and it was silent for a while until i broke the silence.

"w-why?" i cried

"I'm sorry Alexa I'm really sorry okay?" he apologised but there wasn't even a hint of guilt in his voice, He tried to get closer but i quickly backed away

im so fucking done this is the 3 fucking time.

"DONT YOU DARE FUCKING TOUCH ME SAM, THIS IS YOYR THIRD SORRY. YOU THINK BY JUST SAYING SORRY I WILL FORGIVE YOU? HUH? FUCK NO. I WANT YOU OUT MY LIFE AND NEVER COME BACK, I BREAKING UP WITH YOU" I SCREAMED SO LOUD I BET THE NEIGHBOURS HEARD THAT

"Oh you think you can get rid of me that fast? baby you are stuck with me forever" he laughed and i swear to go he sounded the a fucking maniac

i just shit him a dirty look, and i was going to get out the room but he grabbed my arm and threw me on the bed and started kissing my jawline