Find Your Voice

Chapter 2

"Sorry I missed the sunset hun." Troy came up behind me and said in my ear.

"If you were trying to scare me your going to need to take quieter steps." I winked at him and got up and hugged him. He always smells really good. He also gives the best hugs. He's almost a foot taller than me, makes sense being he's three years older than me.

It's midnight now and he just arrived. It's nice at midnight, since we live just outside of a major city, we get to look at the lights over the river, and its a pretty good view from the oak tree.

"happy birthday" Troy smiled and hugged me again.

"oh yeah." I giggeled a bit. " Thank you"

"You are very welcome beautiful" He smiled that little half smile that makes every girl melt.

"I can't believe your 17. I remeber almost everything we've done since we met"

"Everything? Like what?"

"Well, when i was nine and you were six and we hid in the back of my dads truck for hours while our parents were worried sick looking for us, and when I was eleven, when we built our swing and used to jump off of it into the river. Oh, and when I was fourteen and you were eleven we broke every window in my garage." We both laughed

"Why did we even do that?!" I said through my laughs

"I don't even know, and the first time you stuck out to see me, and we just layed by the river together for a couple hours, and you comforted me about my mom going into rehab." we both stopped laughing, and looked down. I rubbed his back and moved closer so I could lay on his shoulder.

"I'm really sorry Troy." I thought back to that whole month of tradgety. Troys brother was sort of like him, but way worse. He was about 22, when he overdosed. The whole family was extremely devastated, and so was my family. Troy's mom was on drugs at the time to, she was afraid of leaving her family in a devestatement like that, so thats why she went into rehab.

"It's alright." He was holding it in.

"Remeber on your sweet sixteen when I got you wasted?"

I burst out in laughter.

"Oh you mean the same night I walked into the wrong house to go home?" We laughed even harder

"Oh my god. That made my life." we both calmed down a bit.

We layed down in the grass and I ended up laying my head on his chest like i usually do, "I can feel your heartbeat"

"What does it sound like?"

"It kinda sounds like butterflies." I said softly.

"Butterflies?"

"Yes. Butterflies, like you get in your stomach, but their in your heart." I listened to the 'thud thud' of his heartbeat. It sounded rather calming, and somewhat reassuring. I was waiting for Troy to answer me... but he never did. "It's a full moon tonight." I tried restarting our conversation.

"The moon is really beautiful. Exactly like you." I felt something. I felt butterflies when he said that. He has never called me beautiful in that kind of way before. He was right, the moon was very beautiful, but maybe i wasn't.

"Shut up." I laughed.

"It's true! Jamie your beatiful. I know you dont think about yourself like that but you should. If you ask anyone they would tell you your perfect, in every single way. Your hair is so long, it waves gently down you back like the sea, your bright blue eyes sparkle, like the stars. Your personality shines like the sun. And your face glows like the moon. Jamie, everytime you say you say you love me it makes me feel wanted, it makes me feel like I'm finally accepted, by someone who had a choice to love me. Whenever we say goodnight and I say I love you I mean it. I tell you I mean like a brother, and when you say it, you say it like a sister. I lied. I mean it like a feeling, like an emotion. I mean it like a partner, like a soul mate. Jamie, you are so perfect to me, and for me. I love you." He stared into my eyes, and I swear i almost melted. He looked so serious. He looked worried, that i wouldn't say what he wanted me to say. I got nervous, what if i didnt say the right thing? What would happen to us? I don't want it to ruin our friendship.

"I..I dont know what to say. I mean, i used to think i had feelings for you when we were younger. I still question myself about it if i do or not. Troy, i know I'm not perfect, but thank you." He still had his eyes locked on mine. I bit my lip, waiting to see what would happen. To see what he would say.

"Will you let me take you on a date?" Troy looked really nervous now, but his face brightened when i smiled.

"Of coarse." I smiled, alot. Maybe I did have feelings for him. Maybe i just didn't know it yet.

He pulled me into an awkward sitting down hug, but it was still a tight, long lasting hug. Like he usually gives me.

We layed back down and started talking about everything. His family, my family. His life, my life. I think we even talked about the talaban for a while. Awks. It was nice just laying there. We were pretty much a couple now. Wow. How did that happen?

"It's getting pretty late, I'll walk you home." He kissed my forehead when i looked up at him.

"Alright, thanks."

Troy helped me up and started walking me home. After walking about 10 meters, he grabbed my hand to hold. It was so cute. I allowed him to hold it and smiled at him. The whole walk home was pretty quiet, I'm pretty sure we were talked out after having the worlds longest conversation.

When we got close eto my house I let go of Troy's hand adn hugged him. He hugged back, with his signiture hug, a tight, long-lasting hug. He looked down at me, with his beautiful sparkling eyes, and i looked up at him with mine. Slowly, but romantically he start leaning down toward me and closed his eyes. I closed my eyes and leaned in until his lips met mine. We were both really gentle about it, and his lips were so soft.

The butterflies in my stomach were crazy. This is the forst time I've kissed a guy since I was 13. I'm glad this kiss was with someone who was special.

We both moved away from eachother, I bit my lip, and he smiled a cute half smile. I couldn't help it, I smiled and hugged him again.

"Goodnight gorgeous." Troy knows I like it when he calls me that.

I giggled a little bit, "Goodnight, text me when you get home."

"Of coarse." He kissed me cheek, winked at me, then walked away. I watched him walk away for a minute, and then i turned around and walked toward my house. When i got close i checked my parents bedroom, the lights and T.V were off. I walked around and climbed the tree into my room.

I changed out of my lazy outfit and put on a loose T-shirt and a pair of spandex shorts, and plugged my phone in as I crawled into bed. I checked the time, 2:30 am already. Nice. I was supposed to be in bed early, oh well.

I layed my head down on my soft feather pillow, and pulled my covers up over my shoulders.

I closed my eyes, and soon enough thought of whats happening tomorrow, thoughts of Troy, and thoughts of pretty much everything sent me away into a deep sleep.

-I actually think this chapter is so cute! :) I didn't know if Jamie and Troy should have kissed the same night he asked her out or not.. cause I didn't want torush things, but everything in the next chapter goes so fast I don't know if I would have been able to add it in there. so it was kind of a yolo moment.

TROY IS ON THE SIDE OH SWEET BABY JESUS ISN'T HE PERFECT!?!?!? your answer is yes. he's amazing. k.

lots of love to like my 17 readers. LOVE YOU ALL