Jakaelah Capone POV:
I'm Jakaelah Capone I'm 19 years old. I live in Memphis, Tennessee. I live with my dad. We are actually from Atlanta, Georgia. We moved to Memphis because of his job. I graduated highschool two years ago. I like to stay out all night and party. I'm kind of shy and I don't like to talk to people. I isolate myself and ignore everyone. I hate talking to people because they aren't as good as me. I see myself better than everyone else. My mother died when I was eleven. She was a pill popper. She did a lot of different medications. I can't truly explain the mess she made. I can't even start to identify all the ones I've seen her take. She use to make me go to the doctor and pretend I was hurt so she could get my medication. She physically and mentally broke me. She abused me and beat me where I was left helpless. I try to forget the past by faking smiles and drinking until i'm numb. My dad would never intervene because he was scared my mom would leave us. He is a really religious man and doesn't believe in divorce. He wanted us to be a happy family and stay together no matter what. He doesn't like me staying out. He doesn't want me to get lost or become a jailbird. I like to fight and mostly I'm the one who starts the fights. It makes me feel good about myself. I love to draw attention to myself. I don't like to be bothered. I don't have any friends because people don't meet my standards. I live life without caring. My dad is an anesthesiologist and he makes a lot of money. I don't have to worry about anything. My life is great the way it is. I don't need anyone in my life. Whenever I was in highschool, I'd bully everyone and make them feel like sh*t. I won't change for anyone because I like the way I am. I've never been in love. I just want to party until I can't party anymore. I drink a lot and smoke a lot of weed. I've been drinking since I was thirteen. My cousin got me drinking alcohol. I started smoking when I was in the 7th grade. I'm a bad influence and I like to direct people in the wrong directions so I can see them f*ck up. I'm rude as hell and can't be tamed. I don't want to be told what to do. I'm spoiled as hell and can do whatever I want. I've been to jail many times before because I'm not slick. I like to fight in public and show everyone what I can do. My hands are something serious. All the girls use to hate me in school. None of them would fight me though. They were too scared to even touch me. I don't play about anything. I use to break my nails on b*tches faces. I'm 5'6 and really skinny. All the fat b*tches would want to push me around but they didn't know what was coming. I'm really aggressive. It doesn't take much to make me mad. I don't care about anyone but myself. I don't care about my family because of my momma. She beat me for no reason and it showed me that you can't even trust family. It hurts me but I hide all my pain with hate. All the things I said before is just a front. I only say and do those things because I don't want anyone to treat me any kind of way. I want to be respected. I want to trust people but I can't so I intentionally scare them off so I don't get hurt. I bully people to make myself feel better. I really do want to love people but I just don't want to be broken. I want to be in a relationship. I want people to love me. I want to be wanted. I'm cold-hearted so I can protect myself from pain and heartbreak. I'm still spoiled but I don't ask for much. I still work even though I don't have to. I have to have good work ethics to become an adult. I like negative attention better than no attention at all. Yes, it is ridiculous but I don't mind. I don't have any friends so why should I care? I really like to read and write. I mostly write teen fiction, romance, thrillers, and adult fiction. I write in a special journal that I keep locked up in a secret compartment behind my dresser. I usually put my dreams in there and make them into wild stories that I wish would happen.
