Never Be Alone

2

I woke up with a pounding headache and a bright light in my face.

"Good morning ugly!" 

I groaned really loudly at how stupid my brother is.

"What do you want Andy? If you can't tell, I went a little overboard last night." I replied when my eyes focused and I could actually see him. 

"I just wanted to bring you some aspirin. Mom and dad told me to watch over you last night, but I didn't do a very good job considering what I'm seeing right now."

Last night..... Last night!

I shot straight up. The contents in my stomach -even though there weren't many-  did not agree with my actions. 

Andy held up my trash can, probably knowing in advance that this was going to happen. It's great having a twin. 

"Thanks," I told him handing the trash can back to him. 

"You're welcome. It's kind of my fault that you're in this position. I didn't take very good care of you." I could see the guilt on his face, so I knew he meant it.

"It's not your fault at all." I thought about telling him about what happened with James, but I don't want Andy to do something he might regret, so I decided to not say anything. 

He took a few moments before he said anything, "Well, it certainly doesn't feel that way."

Andy can be so stubborn sometimes. It wasn't his fault that I didn't know when I should have stopped drinking. It's my fault that I let what James said to me affect me so much. Ugh, I frustrate myself so much.

"Ash... I know that look on your face. You need to calm down." Andy sat on the bed next to me, grabbed my hands and looked straight into my eyes.

"I promise you, its not your fault. Stop stressing." 

When Andy looked straight into my eyes, I knew that he wasn't lying to me. It feels nice having someone that knows you better than you know yourself.

~

After everything that happened this last night, I decided that I needed to spend some time with my two best friends before I left. We were currently at the mall because I said that I need some new outfits for the tour.

"This would look super duper cute on you Ash," Karina said holding up a cute blue bikini.

She was right, it would look really good on me, but my dad would never let me wear it. 

"You sure are right Kari, but her dad would never let her wear that. Neither would Andy." Whitney practically read my mind. We are all really good at doing that to each other. 

"You're right, and I don't even think that she would want to wear it with James around anyway." Karina added, putting the bikini back on the rack.

Yes, I told them about what happened with James, even though I haven't told Elliot or Andy. Both of them would freak out if they found out, but I knew that Whitney and Karina wouldn't say anything to anyone, or tell one of the guys.