A sad love

The fight

Baby stop. No tell her. Ok. 5 minutes later I get a "hah hi matty those pics of you cutting are hilarious I laughed MY ASS OFF THANKS. I text back who is this. This is the friend you waned to show the cuts to. Fuck you bitch. Bye dick. I ask my girlfriend how did she get my number. I gave it to her. Well thanks she's making fun of me I'm going to kill myself. No don't. I get more texts Matt,matty baby you ok?I LOVE YOU. My brother walks in matt what the fuck stop. I'm in tears my girlfriend texts me Matt call me. I call her, what do you want. You need to stop. Why I thought the cuts were just funny I thought if I killed myself I'd practically be a comedian. Baby please I love you. Oh sure. I was crying I called a suicide hotline. Hailey is crying she didn't understand. Oh she didn't fucking understand that's why she told me to kill myself. She didn't know. Huh that explains it totally. Baby pleas I love you. I...I...I'm sorry baby I love you too. Hailey is sorry. Ok baby. I love you. I love you too. A month passes I tell her about my "son" he was a kid I know in first grade he was abused he lives with me he calls me his dad he says my girlfriend is his mommy she approves. She loves him when I'm gone she will check on him. He asked her very personal questions and about sex and stuff she will give a brief answer he asks why I have cuts on my wrists why we were suicidal. One night I come home I call her I walk into his room he is cutting I freeze i say baby he's cutting  .What. He's cutting I'm gonna pass out. Baby don't, I passed out. Babe. Mommy?Yeah baby what happened where's daddy. He passed out. Of course he did he can't handle anything. Oh wow your a help,end call. She texts I didn't mean to offend you. Daddy is on the floor unconscious because of me,do you even care about daddy. Yes. HES UNCONCIOUS TARA. I'm sorry. I'm degrading you from mom to Tara. THATS FUCKED UP. IM DONE. ILL SHOW YOU CUTTING. NO Mommy. Why I thought I was Tara. I was freaking out I'm sorry. MOMMY STOP PLEASE. MOMMY. She sends a pic of a razor blade. NO MOMMY I LOVE YOU. I love you too. MOMMY PLEASE. I'm putting away the blade. I'm sorry😭. It's ok. DADDYS SHAKING AND FLOPPING ON THE GROUND. Get a wash rag. I'm scared mommy. It's ok. DADDYS WAKING UP. Ok honey. Baby that's fucked up what you said. I know I'm sorry mommy. It's ok give daddy the phone. Baby. Yes. Never leave me. Ok baby. Our son was being bad. I know I'm reading the messages. Baby.  Yeah. Never leave me. I know I love you. I love. You