SURFER GIRL

HEARTACHE <\\3

Naging madalas na ang bonding namin ni lhio with kids. ang saya nga eh. talagang naenjoy ko kahit last 5 days ko dito sa palawan.

at yung surfing skills ko? ayun nag improved naman its almost perfect na rin. well magkaron ka ba naman ng magaling na coach samahan pa ng mga cute little surfer na all the way ang pagchicheer sa kin. syempre gaganahan ako hehehe...

at isa pang dahilan kung bakit naging masaya ako. well di ko man aminin lalabas at lalabas din to na i feel something to lhio.

he is so thoughtful, caring than i thought basta i feel those feeling to him even in a phone call. or txt msgs...

pag kasama ko sya nakakalimutan ko about Zaurus... as in lahat kung pano ako nagiging manikin sa kanya...

Lhio is a guy na madaling kagaanan ng loob. he is kind of a... hmmnnn loving person... and that is a fact.. pag magkasama kami. wala akong nararamdamang emptiness. lahat ba ng bagay napapagaan nya.

i don't tell him about my bf. and he didn't even ask about him. though he know that i was on relationship. well i don't wanna offend him baka sabihin wala naman syang pakialam sa lalaking yun kwinento ko pa..

and that was a good thing. atleast i don't have to say about what i really feel bout my bf.

sayang nga di ko sila nakilala nung una pa lang pero happy na rin ako kahit papano nakakilala ako ng mga kaibigang tunay...

I'm almost done packing my things ng biglang magring ang phone ko..

"HONEY, I'M CRAVE FOR YOUR KISSABLE LIPS. CAN'T WAIT THE NIGHTS OVER..." and i feel vomit to think that i am going to kiss you. yan sana ang gusto kong sabihin sa kanya. kaya lang ayoko nang gulo so nanahimik na lang ako.

well naiirita na kasi ako sa kanya kung di lang talaga ako nakaengaged sa kanya at naplano na at almost done na rin yung preparation ng kasal namin siguro nakipagbreak na ko...

my parents wanted me to marry that guy. oo nung una mahal ko sya... mahal na mahal pa, kaya lang when the time passed by its all changed he definitely different from Zaurus i know who is loving and caring na nagmukha na kong prinsesa at reyna nya.

then after a couple of months andyan na yung mga pang iinsulto nya sa kin. like

babe, your going to wear that dress? babe naman mapapahiya ako nyan eh i think you should find your designer. ang baduy mo

babe are you out of your mind? were going in a party not a church. look your dress. i can't believe that i have you in my life...

babe, how many times i told you to apply make up on your face, you look dead so pale.

babe, haven't told you that wear, tube top and short skirt when were together in public... nakakahiya baka mapagkamalan ka pa nilang chaperon...

yan lang naman ang ilan sa mga masasakit na litanya nya araw araw... and he don't care kung nasasaktan nya ko.... o nababastos na ko ng mga kabarkada nya... kahit nahihipuan na ko parang wala lang sa kanya. at minsan pa nga parang sasabihin pa nya. feel free to touch. she was definitely the good girl i ever met...

gosh naiiyak na naman ako... pagod na ko eh, tomorrow balik reality na naman ako. going with him. fake smile, and fake kiss... oh men.. i think i am going to blow right now...

8 months kaming in bf/gf relationship bago kami naengaged. and more than 4 years na kaming engaged hinintay pa kasi namin na makatapos ako bago ang kasal. and now I'm graduated. kaya eto na... i am going to live like hell...

kung eto ngang di pa kami nagsasama para na kong robot na uutusan nya kung anong dapat kong gawin. pag kasal pa kaya kami? i want to escape my life now. its all unfair... di ko ginustong makasal sa gantong paraan...