Hi. I'm Hayden Shaw, and I'm going to be completely honest here and say that when I met him I didn't believe in love. It was a foreign concept to me and I didn't want to get involved in it at all. It seemed to me as if love only caused pain and how could I possibly believe in something that kills people's happiness? I don't know if it was that I never actually believed in love or that I convinced myself that it wasn't real to keep myself from the dangers of love. I often did that, pushed my emotions away to keep myself from feeling pain, but in the end it only made things worse.
It was the year when my life was falling apart, that I met him. Maybe that's why I let him break down the walls I had built up. I'd like to think I was strong enough to protect myself from the danger of a teenage boy and that all the hurt I was experiencing clouded my judgement. But I guess I'll never know because I didn't meet him when I was completely sane, I met him when I was losing control. And losing control is what let Samuel Brown break my heart.
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Teen FictionFirst Kiss. First Love. First Heartbreak. He was my first everything. ----- I don't think we quite understand things until we experience them and sometimes we never understand. I knew I never understood why I loved him. Or why he loved me. And I def...