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Chapter 1- February 13

      The only thought I had as I walked into school was,

Thank god it's Friday .

The only downside to that weekend was Valentine's Day, my least favorite holiday. For some reason, even when I was a kid, the thought of love repulsed me. I don't know exactly how to explain it other than love is just pointless and gross.

"Are you coming to Aiden's Valentine's Day party with me on Saturday?" my best friend, Camryn, asked me as we walked into our first period class. You see, Camryn, unlike me, liked the thought of true love.

Why? I have no idea.

"Umm, definitely not" I responded.

"But why?!" she cried.

"Cam, you know I hate parties," I stated and then continued with a lie, "Plus I have plans."

I don't know if it was the fact that I just lied to her or me supposedly having plans, but she looked shocked.

"Hayden Isabell Shaw, did you really just lie to me?" she asked in awe.

"Why is it so hard to believe that I have a date?" I answered, slightly offended, even though I really didn't.

"Because in the 16 years I've known you, you've never been on a date." Cam stated, truthfully.

"Okay you're right. I don't have any plans, but I'm still not going." I stated.

"Yes, you are." Cam said, sounding determined.

"Nope. There's no point in me going." I responded, knowing she wasn't going to let this go.

"Yes there is. Ian's going to be there and this might be the chance for us to hang out." she begged.

I sighed. "I'm only saying yes-" I started to say but got interrupted by Camryn's squealing and the second period bell.

The rest of the day went by pretty fast and I wasn't exactly thrilled to be home. I usually just walked around town until I knew my parents were asleep so I didn't have to deal with them.

As I anticipated, everyone was in bed by the time I got home. No one really knew what was going on in my life at the time, except for Camryn, and she didn't know the full extent of how bad it was. And I intended to keep it that way. It's not that I didn't want my best friend to know, I just didn't want her to judge me, even though I knew she wouldn't for two reasons:

1.) She was my best friend.

And 2.) She's been through a lot herself.

I didn't want to be looked at as the sad, broken girl. I wanted to be treated normally, even though I didn't feel normal.

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Author's Note:

I know this chapter is extremely short but there's not much to write until she meets Samuel.
CAMRYN ON THE SIDE---->
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