School is very stressful. I haven't been updating much here because I really didn't know what else to say. Since this is like my own personal diary/rant book I might as well say what's on my mind. As of right now I've been extremely stressed with midterm exams an overall scared about how I'll pass all these important tests. Which I think shouldn't determine all I know because I could just have a really bad day and end up FAILING. I'm also having a hard time grasping the fact that I'll be finishing my junior year then suddenly after summer I'll be back in school looking for a college that will accept me. It all get's to me sometimes. Usually at night. Sometimes I really want to be a freshman again, even though at the time all I wanted was, to be a senior. I've also been thinking about one of my old friends a lot, he texted me after months of not talking. I have a terrible habit of wanting to help people who don't want to be helped or don't care enough to try. if anyone reads this...you can stop right now since all of the stuff I'm saying might not make sense at all. I'm also worried about him doing something he'll regret, he tells me things that scare me and sometimes I don't know what to do. How do I help someone that I can't even touch or hug and just hold so that they know that they have someone there for them. I wish I was enough but his depression takes over. Some parents need to cherish the lives of their children. Some people are terrible and don't deserve to have such a beautiful person living under their roof everyday. So fuck you! To all those parents who neglect their children. After 12 years of not hearing his voice or having him around as a father figure...he calls and tells me he misses me and LOVES me..I was shocked that my uncle gave him my number and angry that my so called "father" thinks that I would ever love him. I don't even understand half of the things I've typed I just felt like sharing that....
Have a good day. xx
