Church Boy (boyxboy)

Ten

"H-Harry" I whispered. My vision still blurred with tears. I opened my mouth to speak but Harry immediately shushed me.

"You don't have to say anything. I know we've only known each other for a few months so it's okay. We'll be okay. Just sleep." Harry kissed my nose before guiding my head to rest in the crook of his neck. I wrapped my arms around his torso and kissed his chest.

"I love you...I'm in love with you." I whispered. Harry's breathe hitched but other than that he showed no signs of recognition from my confession.

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I made a sound, between a groan and whimper, as I moved away from the heat that seemed to consume me.

"Hey, come back here."

I turned onto to my side and opened one eye, a goofy smile on my face as I looked at Harry. He was sitting up against his headboard, shirtless, a laptop on his lap. His hair looked messy.

"Good morning." I whispered and rolled closer to Harry and his warmth. "I came back." I smiled against Harry's hip. He ran his fingers through my hair.

"Good morning sleeping beauty. How are you feeling?" He wasn't looking at me as he continued to scrolled through a document on his laptop.

"I had a...interesting dream."

"Wanna tell me about it?"

I sat up and looked at Harry. He didn't look back at me, just kept scrolling. I shook my head and kissed his cheek. "Maybe later," I mumbled before going to the bathroom and going through my daily routine.

-2 hours later-

The dream I had last night had been nagging me and Harry has been super busy with whatever he has been doing on his laptop.

I bit my lip as I looked at Harry. We were both in bed, still. After going to the bathroom I made myself a bowl of cereal then watched some tv. I even sat for almost 45 minutes debating on calling my mum. I decided against it. We both needed time.

As I stared at Harry I decided I was going to act out my dream. So I went over to my still packed suitcase of clothes and dug out some grey sweatpants. I slid them on over my boxers then went into Harry's closet and pulled out his black Nike sweater. I slipped on a pair of black TOMS then went over to Harry.

"I'll be back later. Call me if anything." I whispered. Harry mumbled an okay and turned his head, eyes on the screen still, and puckered his lips. I laughed softly and pecked his mouth a few times before pulling away and slipping out the house.

I walked and walked and walked until I reached my church building. I took a deep breath and went inside, immediately going to the back to get to the Pastor's office. I knocked on the door and waited before I heard the COME IN!

Now or Never right?

"Ah, Louis. What can I do for you?" My Pastor greeted me, smiling big. He was an old short man. Maybe 5 feet 4 inches. His hair on his shoulders and fully grey. He worn think framed black glasses and he was covering in wrinkles.

"I wanted to pray with you if I may?" I said smiling back. I was already feeling better. He immediately nodded and gestured for me to take a seat.

"Of course, let me just grab the oil...okay what do you need prayer for?" He asked as he kneeled in front of me. He poured a little puddle of oil into his palm and said a quick silent prayer before dipping his pointer finger in the puddle and making a cross with it on my forehead. He did the same for himself before rubbing his hands together and grabbing mine.

"I want to pray for forgiveness and strength, for me and my mom." He nodded then closed his eyes and bowed his head, I did the same.

"You may start Louis."

I took a deep breath. "I'm gay. I'm gay and in love with a man. I went to a party and got drunk. I cursed once and I killed Liza twice. I'm sorry and I pray you forgive me. I don't get why you hate us, but you created us. Please give my mother the strength to forgive me some day and keep my family safe. Thank you father, Amen."

I pulled my hands from his and stood up, before he could speak I stepped out of his office and sped walk out of the church. I've never felt better.

A/N I don't even have a real excuse. This chapter totally went left from what I had actually written down but I hope this sorta makes up for it. Also I'm glad to announce this book reached over 10k reads and that's pretty fucking amazing. I have a -technically- free week so more updates!!
(Hopefully, I've already started chapter eleven)