Church Boy (boyxboy)

One

rewritten slightly not fully edited

Louis POV

"Mum, please. You never let me go anywhere. I'm in my last year of high school and this is the one party I've ever asked you to go to. KayMichelle will be there and she's a goody two shoes." I pointed out. I'm in my last year at Groover High and I have not attended one party. All I do is host at my little sisters' birthday parties. Which is always so childish and girly it makes me wonder how my parents don't realise I'm gay.

I'm gay. I'm ashamed of it because feeling this way is wrong, it says so right in the bible. Leviticus 18. It is an abomination, I am an abomination. I hate these feelings and I've done well at not acting on them. 

"Louis, please I'm busy." She isn't really. I made sure she wasn't before walking into the kitchen. All she's doing is talking to one of her nurse friends, gossiping. 

"Mum." I whine, dragging out the word. She looks at me with tired brown eyes and I pout.

"When is this party?"

"Tonight."

"Time?"

"It starts at 9." It actually starts at 7:30 but I've heard parties are always boring the first hour or so.

"When will you be back?"

"Before 1 am. I know all this mum. Can I go or not?" I pout further, knowing she's going to cave soon.

"Fine. But I must approve of your outfit before you leave." She gives me a stern look.

"Thanks mum. I'm going to text Liza." I kiss her cheek and she waves me off.

"Anyway, Barb, Susan said she heard from Louise that Miley is a cheating with Brian's best friend Jacob and that her boyfriend Brian is cheating with Kendra." My mum says into the phone, giggling. This is my life and to think gossiping is a sin.

I leave the kitchen and run upstairs to my room. My room is like a normal teenage boys' room. Instead of posters of girls or cars, I have a big wooden cross hanging facing my bed and the Ten Commandments on the wall directly next to my door. I also have a few paintings I've done myself scattered along the walls, they're mostly splatter paint and abstract.

I have 4 fluffy pillows with silk tan pillow cases and my sheets are light brown. I lay on my bed, I have on basketball shorts and a t-shirt. I grab my phone from under my pillow. Don't ask. And dialled Liza's number.

She has been my best friend since we were kids, ever since she stole my animal cracker in kindergarten. She's bisexual and no one knows except her parents, and of course her girlfriend. She's an only child and her parents adore her.

"Big booty Lou, is that you?" She chuckles.

"What if it wasn't me?" I tease. I can practically feel her eye roll.

"Well since I have caller ID..." She trails off and I hear giggling.

"Is Maya with you?"

"Yes, you interrupted our alone time. She was just about to go dow-"

"Please stop. I love you to death but I don't need that mental image. I'm still trying to get the actual naked image of you out of my head."

"Hey! I meant to send that to Maya and you know it."

"Are you talking about the nude?" I hear Maya loudly whisper.

"Yea, Big Booty Lou won't get over it." Liza says to maya.

"My bum isn't even big." I mumble. I've always hated how feminine my body looks, especially my bum. Ever since I was 16 I had thicker thighs and plumper bum.

"Don't get all insecure on me Louis. You're bum is perfect, any gay guy-"

"I'm not gay." I spit before taking a deep breath. "At least I don't want to be." I mumble. I look down and begin to play with a loose thread. My chest felt heavy and I wasn't sure if it was because I was constantly denying this part of me or because this was a part of me to begin with. 

"Louis, you were born that way. Plus you grew up around females, you've seen how disgusting we are. I would be surprised if you weren't gay." She joked. 

"It's against God. I want to go to Heaven, Liz. I-I don't want to be this way." I'm on the verge of tears now, I can feel my eyes burning with tears as I shift my eyes to stare at the ceiling.

"Oh Lou," She mumbles sadly. " Do you want me to come over?"

"No, no. It's fine. I'm fine. I was only calling you to tell you I can go to the party tonight." I mumble.

"Yay! I'll be over at 8 to help you get ready then we'll go. But you need to shave because I know you haven't shaved your legs in like two weeks and shape up the pubs too."

"Thanks for sugar coating it. Holy snap! Did Maya hear you?" My cheeks burning in embarrassment. 

"Yes I did. A guy that shaves his legs. Interesting." I can hear that Maya is trying hard not to laugh. I feel my cheeks burning hot as well as my neck. 

"I hate you both good-bye." I hang up and lay back against my pillows.

Maya and Liza have been together for almost 3 years now. Maya is 19 and in college. They are honestly the cutest couple ever. They still blush at everything they say to one another. It's adorable. Looking at the clock it's 5pm. I can take a two hour nap and use the last hour to shower and things.

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It's not until Liza is pulling out all of my jeans that it sinks in. I'm going to my first high school party!

"Holy noodles!" I shout. Liza jumps, turns to me then frowns.

"What the fuck, Louis! Why would you scream like that." She scolds.

"I'm going to my first high school party." I say, my eyes sting with tears and my chest feels heavy. What if I completely embarrass myself?  Liza sighs and sits next to me on my bed, next to a pile of jeans.

"Oh big booty, I know this is a big moment for you but we need to find you an outfit or you won't be going anywhere." She smiles sweetly.

She's dressed pretty nice. She's wearing black leather jeans, a crop rainbow top, it shows her belly piercing and says Back off! I'm gay in bold white letters. Her red dyed hair is straighten, her bangs held back by a bobby pin. I can't remember her shoes since she had to take them off before entering the house.

"So, tonight we're going with a fuck me I'm wild look. I picked out these white jeans that I haven't seen you wear in ages, this blue short sleeve top that looks amazing on you and your white vans. Chop chop." She says before pulling out her phone, probably to text Maya.

I get dressed in the clothing without much hassle, except the jeans that are a little too tight around my thighs and when I lift my arms all the way up, my pudgy belly pokes out at the bottom. I face Liza and pout.

She grins when he looks at me. "You look hot." She says.

"Well my legs can't breathe and this shirt is too small." I frowned, I honestly felt good but really constricted.

"No shirt is too small babes. You look great now grab a jacket so Momma Jo doesn't see your ass in those jeans." 

"Okay. Lets go." I say once I grab my pea coat. Liza smiles and kisses my cheek.

"We're going to have so much fun tonight."

A/n Okay, I think I'll just stop right there. First chapters are always boring to me. Next chapter Louis and Harry will meet. Possible Drunk Louis?

Thanks for reading. xx

A/N I haven't been able to get onto this account since about 2017 and I just want to say a huge thank you to everyone still reading and commenting and voting. It was such a shock to come back to 100k reads. I am now working on editing this book, enjoy.