Dusk

Chapter 4

Chapter 4 - Oh...

I leaned against a wall pouting waiting in the lunchline. This had been the longest two weeks ever. It had been days since I made that promise to Justin to tell Kaylie we were over by the end of the school year and I just couldn't do it ... It not that I had romantic feelings for her but she was so... Fragile... Not to mention one of my best friends.

I had been over Justin house every day since then and I had gotten to know his "pack". He had one brother Erik who was 21 and one sister Remy who was 24. The toddler I had seen waddle out of the house that day was remy's daughter nicole a.k.a justin's neice. Then his mom Alice and Father Tony. It was a rather loud, energetic family that surprisingly I had become attatched to. Of course they weren't the only family to live in that house, they were just the main branch of the pack. The alpha family.

I didn't know how I felt about it all yet but I knew it was cool. Anyway the point was... I was stuck. I knew I couldn't give up justin...I had become far to attatched to him and I knew Kaylie would always be my friend but it hurt me to hurt her. Then there was tucker. Poor, poor tucker. I sighed rubbing my face and groaned. I hadn't realized his feelings until about two days ago.

I had been laying in Justin's bed and then it hit me how peculiar tucker had been acting. Growing more distant the more Justin was around and eyes always filled with a longing yet hateful look that I recognized as jealousy. I had asked Justin and he just snorted and laughed at me quietly asking me how I had not known before this.

Tucker was a friend...just a friend. He was attractive I every possible way but I never once thought of him as more then a friend. Okay yes I had but not in that way. I loved tucker I LOVED that boy but as a brother not as anything more. I would give my life for him but he just wasn't justin. Only Justin had that heart warming smile that made my knees feel like giving out.

I heard feet approaching and there stood kaylie and tucker. "Hi guys." I says straitening up and then they exchange looks before pulling me into the nearest janitor's closet. "We know." Kaylie whispered finally and my heart did a small backflip. "Know what?" I say playing dumb. "We saw you...well I saw you." Kaylie says quietly leaning against The locked door them slowly sliding down to sit on the floor.

"What are you talking about I say quietly face red already knowing what was coming. "That your screwin' around with Justin." Tucker murmured his accent stretching out screwing so it became a four about three words. My stomach dipped and my face reddened. "We're not screwing," I say harshly and blush again. "We're just..." "Your just what justin, your just playing the Feild, your just hurting kaylie,your just gay?" He said spitting out the last word. And then actually spat on my shoe. "Your...a freak." he finally murmured taking a step back And I shoved him.

"Don't give me that bull crap tucker. I know you and I see the way you look at me with them puppy dog eyes, well news flash, I'm not interested, who could ever be interested in a hillbilly like you anyway, no wonder you're mama left you." I practically snarled in his face and immediately regretted it as tucker looked like I'd just slapped him them ripped out his intestines.

"I know I may have delt with the situation wrong..." Tucker admitted and shook his head turning his ace away from me. "But I NEVER would have said something that cruel to you." He whispered and I bit my lip feeling guilty waves wash over me. His mom hasn't exactly left but had been beaten by his father and went to get the cops to have him arrested seeing as they hadn't had enough money at the time to have a phone and had gotten in a car accident on the way there, she was now in a coma and he was staying with his aunt while his father was in jail.

"I'm sorry tucker." I say taking a step forward knowing he was still in pain so so much pain and i had rubbed it in his face intentionally causing him pain when i knew the only reason he had lashed out at me was because he loved me and i loved Justin... i reached for him and he shoved me away. This wasn't exactly a big closet so I landed on my butt next to kaylie who was gently crying. I blinked and looked at kaylie then to tucker them to kaylie. "I'm sorry." I finally say and Kaylie begins to cry harder and I cradle her I'm my arms while tucker sits down too head in his hands.