Attack On Titan Fanfiction (Incomplete)

Chapter 19: Accidental Confessions

Eren looked at Levi differently from there on. He didn't question his actions, he tried not to get angry when the male ignored him, he tried to give him space when he thought he needed it and keep him company when he thought he'd like it... Even if he'd never say it outloud to Eren.. Whenever anyone said anything bad about him, they would have a fight on their hands, whether verbal or physical - Eren would take none of it, Levi didn't deserve it. He was in love with the boy that he'd (rather creepily) watched in the library for 6 months. He was gay, he had known it since he was about 10. He had always tried to fight against it but at 12, he gave in. There was no point fighting something that he couldn't change. Eren was always daydreaming in class, wondering about Levi, still confused about him... He was so mysterious, and he felt so sorry for him because of his past. He felt horrible for thinking this, but... He felt slightly... happy... that Levi had said he'd lived in a care home and was adopted. They had something in common, they understood one another... Well, at least they would if he told Levi, most people knew that Eren's mum had been killed and his father left (much like Levi) but he didn't think that Levi actually knew... Maybe he should tell him. After all, Levi had told him his life story when he didn't really wish to, surely it would be wrong not to. He loved Levi, he loved him despite his past, in fact, he loved him even more because he knew about him more and knew more about why he was the way he was. He had a crush on that adorably moody midget...

Levi continued his argument with himself, trying to forget his feelings for Eren, but he just couldn't do it. Several more cuts were gouged into his wrist in a desperate attempt to let out feelings with the blood and forget, but he just couldn't. He was in love with the boy that had (rather creepily) watched him in the library for 6 months. He was bisexual, he couldn't fight against it anymore. He was and there was nothing he could do to change the way he was. If he wasn't such a quiet person always keeping himself to himself, he would have asked someone whether being bi was wrong... But Levi never spoke to anyone except Eren really. He lay on his bed, staring up at the ceiling in silence, lost in thought, blood trickling down his arm onto the sheets, dirtying them, but for once he didn't care. He had a crush on that bloody brat...

They started avoiding one another. Levi started to avoid Eren more, he felt uncomfortable with what he'd admitted to himself and felt embarrassed every time he spoke to the brunette. Eren started thinking maybe he'd done something wrong, or may Levi just wanted time alone... So he started trying to stay away from him more. When they were in their room, Levi barely ever spoke, (not that he had spoken much before), and Eren got quieter and quieter. Levi would catch him looking at him sadly and Eren would blush and look away. Levi hated the way he looked so cute when he blushed. He wanted to tell Eren, but he was terrified that Eren would judge him and hate him. Eren wanted to tell Levi that he was adopted too, but he was too scared that Levi would think he was lying or something.

One morning, Eren heard the alarm go as usual and Levi turned it off. Eren groaned and hid under his duvet, he felt even more tired than usual for some reason.

"Sorry Eren, I set that on my phone and I put it under my pillow, I hoped it wouldn't wake you but I must have moved my pillow slightly in the night..." Levi grumbled quietly, his voice sounded sleepy. Eren frowned under his duvet and poked his nose and eyes out cutely, his hair all fluffy and messy. He squinted through the darkness at the red digits on the clock. It was 5am. So that was why it felt earlier than normal...

"You... slept?" Eren asked quietly in disbelief, his drowsy voice thick with sleep.

"Mmhmm..." Levi turned his phone on and sat up with a sigh. Eren screwed his eyes up at the light. He could see Levi's silhouette in the dark, the light from his phone shining softly on him, showing his chest muscles through his black t-shirt. Unfortunately, Eren could also see the illuminated cuts on his wrists, they seemed to have multiplied.