My name is Daniel Howell. I am sixteen and have anorexia nervosa. I never exactly wanted this. I never planned this. It was bullies. I got called 'fat' and a bunch of other names. I believed them.
I go to an ordinary school. I'm quite quiet in school. No one knows I have anorexia. Although, I do get the feeling that my mom suspects something.
I never wanted this, as I said. For me, it was a coping mechanism. I thought that maybe if I got control over my eating, that I could get control over my life.
I feel as if my life is a semicolon; the sentence may have started, but it certainly is not over.
It seems that way at times, that one day I inevitability will die. But I get the feeling that I will die eventually from this disorder that is quite literally eating me away to nothing.
I don't see myself as nothing though, I see myself as fat. I see myself as worthless. I feel shameful or who I am.
I can admit, I've never had a proper friend. Who would want to be friends with a person like me?
Everyday, I do the same thing. Go to school, skip lunch, go home and skip dinner, etc. It's a never ending cycle.
You know how almost every author makes a extremely deep point about one of the characters being depressed? Well I guess that this is mine - My name is Daniel Howell, and I have depression, social anxiety, and the monster of my body, anorexia nervosa.
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Fanfiction"I never wanted this. I never planned this. So how do you think I'll get over this horrible disease that literally is eating me away to nothing?" Daniel Howell, a sixteen year old who lives an ordinary life but he has a secret. A secret that he had...
