Finding out who I am

The pain of rejection

 Hurt and pain flashed in my eyes before I put on an emotionless facade. I promptly turned and ran out of the cafeteria and to the girl's bathroom where I cried until I couldn't cry any longer. I had already missed first and second period so there wasn't a point for me to go to the rest of my classes so I went to the pack house and climbed the many stairs to my room. 

I pulled out the few items I had left from my mother. She had left me a present that I was to open only on the day I turned 17 so it sat in my closet on the very bottom unopened. I would open it first thing tomorrow morning. I also pulled out the 3 pictures I had of my mom. I set them next to me and sat there wishing my mom was here to help me through the pain and loss i felt right now. the pain was almost as bad as the day my mom passed away. Werewolves were usually abnormally healthy and rarely ever got sick so it was a shock to the whole werewolf community when they found out my mother had cancer.  My mother had found her mate; my dad; but he had up and left her the second he found out she was pregnant with me. Everyone in my pack blames me and my father for being the cause of cancer because she had somehow gotten the cancer from my father and it got worse when I was born. She fought hard to stay alive for five years of my life. She finally couldn't take the pain anymore and passed away on my fifth birthday.  I don't know how my father could have possibly given her cancer nor do I know why everyone blames me. All I know is that I wish she was still alive to help me through times like these. 

Out of nowhere a burning sensation brakes my train of thought.  

'What is happening to me. Ow this hurts really bad, what is going on?'

'Our mate is having sex with someone else. We are feeling the pain of our mate bond being strained.'

'Why would he do this to us. I know we are treated as the pack's slave but why would he want to hurt us so bad by sleeping with another she-wolf not even an hour after rejecting us?'

'I don't know why Saph, but I wish I did.'

'We need to run away get as far away from him and this damn pack as possible. I can't take it anymore.'

'NO. We have to stay at least until your birthday tomorrow. Show him that what he is doing doesn't hurt you. Show him and everyone you are stronger than they thought.'

'Fine, but we will only stay until after tomorrow. Hell  we are only staying until midnight tomorrow night.'

'Okay now its almost 5 pm so we better go down and make the pack's dinner.' 

I head downstairs and to the kitchen where I start to make over 300 stakes, 300 hamburgers, 600 salads, and almost 12 pounds of baked potatoes and noodles. Once I finish their dinner I quickly grab a bowl of strawberries and rush up to my room. I ate silently and then got ready for bed. Since I didn't go to my classes today I didn't have any homework. With nothing better to do I climbed into my bed and started to fall asleep. 

'Please Moongoddess let tomorrow be the best birthday I've ever had please. I have never asked for anything else from you. Please hear my prayer and grant me this one wish.'