I Need Love:God Give Me A Sign

Chapter Three

Chapter Three

I just need to be happy i hate always being said why do i have to feel this way always being sad wanting to cry and always getting mad, i just need happiness this baby fever is killing i want a baby but i don't want a baby by a guy that'll turn out to be a bum ass dad. I want my kids father to be their for them even when we're not together but what i'm hopping for that we'll stay together.

I wish these people in my family could let me talk instead of always ignoring me or wanting me to listen to their life story. always saying there's nothing wrong with you Kimbella Marie how can you be stress. These people just don't know sometimes i sit and wonder if me not gaining enough weight and losing my hair is the reason from stress or is because i'm mild anemic. i can't say.

I want to be loved, be hugged, be fucked right lol. i need it all but you know the is it seems like no man care to even see the person that i am or how i'll be a good girlfriend to them. i always end up with men who lives in another state that wants to date or talk to me like um hello what are you going to do for me sir? talk on the phone? facetime and thats it? i think not i need someone i can see every day or once in a blue moon.

I know i shouldnt have no worries because i know god got me and he'll send me my guy but how long should i wait? i cant say i look for love everywhere but just not on the interent thats not my style. I could meet someone in the mall, the park , or the library but i think its me and my young looking face. Because i end up with someone like nineteen trying to holla like no boo boo i need someone my age range i cant date someone who's my oldest nephew age.