ReMoved (Foster Care)

ReMoved part 2

You don't remember my story all you can think about is your own story you can not heal me your not a healer you can not save me or hide me this is my story I have to make peace with it. Once upon a time there was a little girl being torn apart in between the homes she learned not to trust to always have her guard up " In what ways have you maintained a parent and child relationship " said the worker " i I love them " said mom " the issue at this hearing is wither or wither not we should terminate your parental rights not wither or not you love your children or if they love you the issue is at this point if you have a parent and child relationship with your children and if it will bring them harm for that legal relationship to be terminated " said the judge Ms. Lott do you understand the purpose of this hearing said the worker yes said mom so you understand this hearing is to terminate your parental rights do you understand that if the judge terminates them you will no longer be the legal mother of you children said the worker Sometimes my life feels like a circle and never ending on going cycle I don't know how to stop it or change it or break it and I finally come close it starts all over set out to destroy me Sometimes things start to get better life falls into a new rhythm and it may not be the best but i made peace with it and it feels like almost I might be happy maybe I can right my own story start from scratch forget the past but then of coarse someone else makes a choice and leaves me to figure it out and when I finally come close it starts all over again when I close my eyes and see my life the life I always imagined I see something different from what I see now you see what I do but forget why you forget what I've heard you forget my pain I explode inside sometimes slowly sometimes all at once but always eventually. Once upon a time there was a girl being torn apart and maybe you never thought your path across these valleys or be lead up these mountains but no one could break the inside of me and no can tell me who I can be or will be the question lives when you have the choice were to go next we are stars born in fire wind born into the carous and the winds come across us and no stays with us everything we know was taken away but one day one day we will shine

Remember my story xoxo M. R