atelophobia | jg |

05

You Should Know Where I'm Coming From - Banks

Jack's pov

She was staring down at the bed below, she sighed. " So when you, my brother and I started middle school you guys kinda instantly got popular.

Playing a bunch of sports. I was kinda left in the dust. But I had Carrie and Darcy, but then once we started High school.

I stopped talking because I envied every girl in the school, who was skinny ,confident, pretty, and I felt like a total complete outcast. I stopped talking freshman year, my mom finally took me to the doctors.

My dad nor my brother know this at all, she took me to the doctors one day during junior year. It was one of those days where I didn't go to school for a week. I didn't get out of bed, I wasn't sick but mom didn't care.

Jack didn't even give me a second glance then but I could tell he still cared a little bit. Anyway, she took me to the doctors they asked me various questions and then they came up with a solution.

I have Atelophobia."

She confessed to me I'm still trying to process this fully, "If you don't mind me asking, What is Atelophobia?" Her gaze finally reached my eyes.

"Atelophobia is a fear of not being good enough" she said looking directly in my eyes.

I looked into her eyes a second longer before I put both my hands on her face, gently not knowing if I would hurt her or not.

"Lizzy, you are good enough. Hell you are more than enough. I am so sorry that your idiotic brother and I did that to you. I am so sorry I wasn't paying attention to you. I wish I did because it could have been prevented, I am truly sorry for everything. Leaving you in the dust and ditching you. I have no idea if you would accept my offer but.. Can I have a second chance?"

My voice breaking at time, me rushing my words, this isn't even half of what I wanted to say. I wanted to also tell her that she could have came up to us, that she is the most beautiful girl and would and shouldn't feel like that, but I can't tell anyone how to feel.

She is hesitant to answer but she slowly nods her head yes, her head that is still between my two big hands. My hands travel downwards towards her back.

I feel her get goosebumps, I pull her into a hug "I promise you won't regret it, I love Lizzy" I tell the fragile girl in my arms. " I love you too,Jack"

But it sucked knowing how I can't truly tell her how much I love her.