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New York - Milk and Bone

Liz's pov

Its been a week later since my appointment with my therapist that Jack attended too.

I am currently watching The Fosters, it is on of my favorite shows I haven't been watching it lately because of stress and me forgetting to record it.

Jack, Sammy and Nate are all downstairs in our basement along with Carrie and Darcy.

I feel like if I go down there and get my art stuff they will all look at me weird, besides Jack and my brother.

I was butting on my nails for the past thirty minutes wondering and going through all the possible situations that would happen if I go downstairs.

Screw it.

I'm not gonna let them get in the way of something I love to do.

I want art and drawing and expressing my self through a colored writing utensil to be my future. It's a future I look forward too.

I made my way down stairs to the main floor and saw my parents in the kitchen cooking dinner. I stopped once I heard them talking about me "Do you think the therapist is helping her?" My dad asked my mom

"I don't know, but Dr.Martinez is the only person Elizabeth talks too" my mom says.

She only says my full name if I'm in trouble or in a serious matter.

"Do you think that she is just going to give up, eventually?" My dad says chocked up, his voice started cracking at the end " Dan, you know that our Lizzy is a fighter, so please don't think like that" she soothed my dad.

Tears prick my eyes as my dad has a thought about me giving up. Me giving up again. I tried freshman year but my mom walked in on me trying to give up.

We didn't tell my brother, we lied to him and told him that I had a really bad cold and they were keeping me there to make sure I was fine.

The thought of my brother not knowing my diagnosis and him not knowing I'm bipolar and him not knowing I almost gave up freshman year.

It would have torn him up if I suddenly wasn't there that day when he got back home from football camp.

I wipe the tears and make my way downstairs, I see them all watching a movie,The Perks of Being A Wallflower.

That was our movie, Darcy, Carrie and me use to watch. I would always cry every time I saw it, only their eyes watered.

I swear they both made fun of me for crying my eyes out but they didn't understand.

They didn't even notice me, all besides Jack once I stepped off the stairs.

His eyes following me over to my art stuff in the corner of the room, I grab my white, black and gray set of markers that are eight dollars a marker.

I grabbed my erasers and pencils and my black and white design book with some pages being plain white blank sheets, while some pages are plain black sheets.

I grabbed my stuff trying not to drop it all, I did drop my markers though. That made everyone's attention go from the movie to me.

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Guys how did you like the update?!
What do your think will happen next?
Do you think they will laugh at her, make fun of her?
Will her and Gilinsky have a special moment?
I asked so many questions god I'm stupid
Anyway ily all !