For starters, I do this because I have a friend who does it and it looked fun. Another starter, if you don't like depression or sadness, you can leave, exit's are where ever I put them.
So here is day 1.
I have a pretty depressing life even though I cover it up with stupidity in my social life. So today went like this, I go to school, bust my ass in ROTC drill team as usual. But today we had a promotion ceremony. I was so excited to get a job, or at least a rank. But i did not they gave it to some kid. So I am pretty upset about that. I gave a note to the girl I like, I finally got the guts to do it. The cuts on my thighs are healing kinda okay, they hurt though. I was upset all day today because I realized how lonely o really am. All my friends have someone. But I have no one. I guess its because I am Mason, and I am_annoying, a nerd, fat, loud, ugly. I dont know, next time I get down I will have to find the good. And honestly the reason no one dates me is because they are afraid of being made fun of. I mean hell,even my own friends put me down, Andi don't even care about it. I really have the problems I do because of my friends putting me down, and leaving me out I guess. There is one that her and I barely know each other. Her name is Liana. She is always nice to me. But who even cares, honestly like 2 people would really care if I died right now. So all of this is pointless, o thought pouring out my feelings onto this website was gonna help all the way, but its only half way. Well thank to who even cares I guess. Night
