A Time to Remember

Chapter 3

​I found it harder and harder to keep up with an everyday routine the longer I was without him. At first I would wake up, eat breakfast, then go outside and read on the porch like I use to do. Then, I would wake up, and find myself staring at his picture of us together. Apparently, the picture of him didn't cause me to freak out like seeing him did, in fact, it seemed to calm me.
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The next thing I knew, I wouldn't even wake up some times. I would find myself lying in our bed, dreaming of him and me together. The dream was so realistic, it made me so sad when I woke up to find him not there, that I would sob for two hours straight. Then, I would eventually get out of bed and hobbled my way to the kitchen and emotionally eat my weight in ice cream and everything else I could find in my fridge.
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I was a mess. A few times, my mother would come to check up on me, and each time, she told me that I needed to get help or see a therapist and each time I would cruse at her to bring me Brandon. By now, you probably think that I'm obsessed with him, but I'm not. The last time I really got to see him, he was lying unconscious at my lap, and after that, I haven't been able to see him since. I'm worried about him, and I miss him. Now is that bad? I admit, I made the worst decision listening to Veronica, and I'm pissed at myself for being so stupid enough to walk outside and throw off that dress.
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I walked to the kitchen and grabbed a full a bag of potato chips, soda and a container of ice cream. As I walked to my couch and plopped my butt down and started flipping channel's on the TV, the doorbell rang. Now I know it's just wishful thinking, but every time the doorbell rung, a small, tiny part of me was hoping it was Brandon waiting behind that door even though the rest of me new it was never true, and it never was. This time, was no acceptation.

​"Hey darling," my sister Diana said as she trotted through the door. "I bear great news."​

"Unless it has something to do with Brandon, I'm not interested." She gave me a knowing look and my interest perked up.

​"Wait, what happened," I almost yelled.

​"Eager much," she said, stalling. The anticipation was driving me mad.

​"Oh just tell me already!" I yelled.

​"Okay, do you want the good news first or the bad news... Wait, I think it would make more sense if I tell you the good news first. So, good news, Brandon has finally gotten released."
​When I heard that I felt almost all the pain that has been weighing on my chest has finally been lifted odd me and I couldn't help but to do a little cheer because I was so happy.

​"Woah, girl, settle down," Diana said. "I haven't told you the bad news yet."

​"Well what is the bad news," I said carelessly. My man was finally out and that meant I could see him whenever I wanted. What could ever go wrong now?

​"The bad news is that Veronica convinced him that he didn't have a place to stay and told him that he could stay with her until he could find a place and he eagerly accepted.
​That's when my joy ended and just like that and all the pain that had lifted suddenly came back.

​"No, she can't do this. She's taking advantage of him and it's not fair for either me or him." I walked back to the couch and slumped into it. Diana closed the door and followed me in.

​"That's why I'm here. I'm going to take your mind off him and Veronica," she said.

​"And how are you going to do that?"

​"Simple, just get over him."

​"Get over him? Are you insane? No really, did you hit your head?" I asked. Diana laughed halfheartedly and sat down beside me.

​"Look, Tiff, you haven't been yourself lately and mom and I are worried that you might be losing yourself more and more. It's thinking about Brandon too much that got you into this mess, and it's going to be forgetting about him that will get you out. Trust me, realizing sooner than later that your chance with him is over, the better it'll be for you."
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"No! I just have to see. I know it! Having him see me will make him remember me and we can be happy together, Diana. I love him and he told me he loves me too and that there's nothing in the world that could make him forget that. If I just keep pushing at it-"