Forgotten but not Invisible

First heartbeak

This is a poem about being abandoned and heartbroken by my father when I was younger.

Every night I go to bed.
With you running through my head.
I never felt this new feeling.
I sometimes stare at the ceiling wondering, why?
After all this time you never even said goodbye.
I've never experienced heartbreak, until i met you.
I wonder if the feelings you told me were true.
They weren't, were they?
I believed every word that you would say.
Not only did you leave me,
But you left our family.
I barely see you now.
I'm allowed, it's just seeing you brings back memories.
I'm tired of hearing all of your apologies.
That one night when everything went wrong.
Something happened between you and mom.
And now everything changed.
To find out my father is deranged.