Everything Has Changed (Completed)

Short Part 38 (Day 11)

Umuwi nalang ako dito sa bahay,

kahit na may pasok pa,

alam ko namang walang magkaklase,

ayokong gumawa ng kahit ano.

Iba talaga yung feeling ng masaktan ka for the very first time.

Napaka oa ko mang pakinggan , pero gusto ko nang mamatay.

I'm sure maiintindihan ako ng mga taong nasaktan .

Alam nila yung feeling na toh,

Gusto kong mamatay.

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Sinaktan ko yung sarili ko,

sinaksak ko ng ballpen yung braso ko,

kasi eto , mas kaya ko pa eh.

kahit simpleng away lang yon,

naging bayolente siya,

alam kong galit siya.

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May cutter dito,

gusto kong itapat yung cutter sa pulso ko,

gusto kong hiwain , para kasing kahit eto yung unang beses , napagod agad ako.

parang ayoko na,

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Teka, Di ko dapat gawin toh.

That's why there's music,

there's Taylor Swift Music.

that's why music exist ,

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So I Put my Earphone on.

and Play Last Kiss

I do recall now the smell of the rain

Fresh on the pavement

I ran off the plane

That July 9th

The beat of your heart

It jumps through your shirt

I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing of your step

The life of the party, you're showing off again

And I roll my eyes and then

You pull me in

I'm not much for dancing

But for you I did

Because I love your handshake, meeting my father

I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets

How you kissed me when I was in the middle of saying something

There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

Habang naririnig ko yung lyrics,

parang bumibigat yung pakiramdam ko,

mas nararamdaman ko yung sakit.

pero bawat patak ng luha ko ,

nababawasan.

Nakakagaan ng pakiramdam.

Hindi ko alam.

Pero naapply ko ang music ni Taylor maski sa buhay ko,

Siguro eto yung dahilan kung bakit niya ko naging fan.

That's why you can consider her as role model.

She can filter her feelings through songs,

Mas naappreciate ko siya.

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After ng Last kiss,

dahil hindi naman nakashuffle yung music player ko.

Biglang nagplay yung Little Things.

Your hand fits in mine 

Like it's made just for me 

But bear this in mind 

It was meant to be 

And I'm joining up the dots 

With the freckles on your cheeks 

And it all makes sense to me 

I know you've never loved 

The crinkles by your eyes when you smile 

You've never loved 

Your stomach or your thighs 

The dimples in your back at the bottom of your spine 

But I'll love them endlessly 

I won't let these little things slip out of my mouth 

But if I do, it's you, 

Oh it's you, 

They add up to 

I'm in love with you, 

And all these little things 

For the First Time , Naappreciate ko yung kanta ng 1D,

Di ko alam kung bakit merong 1D song sa phone ko,

pero nakatulong siya para mapagaan yung pakiramdam ko.

Hindi ko maimagine na yung Grupong kinamumuhian ko,

makaktulong pala para mapagaan yung pakiramdam ko,

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Naalala ko tuloy si Dianne ,

Mas gusto kong magpursiging mahanap siya.

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