Letting go (REVISED)

Chapter three

I feel heavy like I've been sleeping for days, oh god, I'm sore all over.
I lift my head, where am I?
This doesn't feel like my bed.

I open my eyes and I see hard bronzed muscles under my cheek, rising and falling slowly.
Cooper. I look up.

Oh!

I'm laying on his stomach, his legs either side of mine, he's awake but deep in thought. I feel like I have had the best sleep of my life but I doubt this was comfortable for him. I make to roll off him.

"Sorry" I mumble softly, embarrassed that I am sucker-fished to his body.
"Hey babe, morning" he holds me in place
"What time is it?" I ask and clear my throat, man I slept like the dead.
"It's still early, bout ten A.M I think"
"That's not early Coop" I tell him
"It is for me, I'm nocturnal remember? I have to be with my job" he smooths my hair as he talks.

"That feels good" I tell him.
"This feels good" he gestures to us. "Gonna make it hard for me to go on my date today"

My heart stops.

"You have a date today?" I sound like I'm choking.
"U'huh, yeah blind date, smokin hot blonde I've been told" His voice is flat and I can't read him.

A fire starts in my belly and I feel like I've been punched.
I sit upright and he lets me. He folds his arms behind his head, at ease. He watches me, I'm still naked but I don't care.

How could he be with me like that last night knowing he had a date today?

He gives me the Devil's smile and it hits me, we both have a date today.

Fuck!

Mr Reins and his business partner, Sophie?
Oh great.

I really don't want to work today but I have a lunch meeting. By the look on Cooper's face he knows I've figured it out. I laugh at myself and throw a pillow at him.
He laughs with me.

"Jealous baby?" He breathes to me when we quiet down.
"Yes, I've met your date, you won't be disappointed. My date on the other hand is in his forties and balding" I make a face. "Soo not my type!"
He laughs at me but studies my face.

"What is your type Iz?" He asks me.

I think of him naked, the way his muscles move, his smile, his icy green eyes, his lips...

"You are I guess" I admit with pink cheeks. "Cooper I've never wanted a man's touch, you are the first man I've let even kiss me" admitting this is hard for me.
"Iz, I don't understand how you could be a virgin at thirty years of age, I've seen you with your boyfriends and I know the walls you put up for them... But you must of had needs, I comforted you when they broke your heart"

"Ha! My hearts never been broken Coop, that would mean I had one. You comforted me when I hated myself"
"Oh I know you do Isabel. I've seen it. Why would you hate yourself?" He is getting angry with me.

"I'm broken Cooper, I can't love. No one has managed to get one ounce of feeling out of me, I'm an emotional mute!"

He's on me in a flash, his mouth hard, tongue thrusting deep. My anger turns to passion instantly and I'm on him, kissing him back.

My god!
How does he do this to me?
He pulls away breathing hard.

"What do you call that, Iz? Did you feel nothing, do you feel nothing for me?!" He sounds frustrated.

"I don't know what you have done to me Coop. This time yesterday I had never even thought about your lips and how soft they are, how they would feel on my skin, on my body. But now that's all I can think about. I'm so confused. I don't know how I feel about you Coop, you are my best friend, but you make me feel. You make me want more. I can't tell you anymore than that. I have no answers for you. I have no answers for me...... Excuse me, I need to pee." I get up and walk to the bathroom, I don't look back.