Zanemau: Loving The Impossible

Chapter seven: Lost

Aphmau's P.O.V

I just realized that Zane left the locker room..It's so peculiar that..I'm the one who is sitting on the bench now and I'm the one who is now left alone..

I covered my face with my hand and cried my heart out..I dont know why I'm so sad and mad at the same time...I mean..I shoukd be happy because Garroth wants to kiss me..and he wants me..but..I was overwhelmed..about something.. I have to figure out what wa-

Suddenly my thought was cut off by something that feels warm..As I open my eyes..A beach-blonde hair appeared  beside me..I knew who it was..It was Garroth... "Are you upset by something?..Why are you crying?" He asked as I strangle away from him..I dont want him to hug me..Infact..I dont know..who I want to hug.. Tears gushed out from my eyes as I strangle away from him..

I lost it and shouted.."Get away from me! You don't even care what I feel! All you wanted was a relationship and to use me for fame!" I covered my mouth as I realized what I said...

"You know that's not true Aph..You know I love you!"

"You never told me that! And how would I know that if you never tried to say it!" I feel like I'm blaming him..and I want to..I felt embarrased when Zane saw me about to make out with Garroth...

I stared Garroth with mad eyes..

"F-f-fine! Be that way..just remember I still love you no matter what.. If you want to ask me what I'm doing here..I was here to visit you..It was no use.."

When he said those words..I know from that moment on..I can't regret what I said..and from that moment on..I lost my feelings for him...

"Nobody asked you to visit me anyways!" I said and left him in shock..he left the room with a shock face..as if he got shot on the head..

My knees felt heavy..I cried my heart out again as I fell on my knees..

~Few minutes later of Aph cryin'~

I felt so much better after crying so hard..Infact I felt like I can be free again..but..this one particular question was still stuck in me.. Can I be atleast be friends with Zane?

That odd question need to be answered.. I stood up and fixed my hat..and went to the new waiters and waitresses line.. I was just in time.. As I stood on the line..Zane's face was on my mind..I can't help it..so I glanced at him..and..I blushed as I saw him already glancing at me.. I saw him blush too..and I looked away..

I think I know the answer to my question now... It can never be a no..or a maybe...ha..I smiled and blushed so hard like an idiot as I thought of being friends with him...

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