Zanemau: Loving The Impossible

Chapter Three: One of the hardest thing is to choose..

Aphmau's P.O.V

My heart is still pounding pretty fast from that dream..Why did I dreamed about them? Cant I just dream about kitties and puppies? Like..Why does it habe to be that strange dream? Making me choose...

Its so hard to choose..If I choose Aaron..My friendship with Zane will be over and vise versa..

I should be going to work...Oh right..I quitted the job...Being a waitress is so hard..I mean..Taking orders from people and being polite to them even they arent..Its just plain hard..

I have nothing to worry about anymore..But..WHAT AM I SAYING? OF COURSE I HAVE SOMETHING TO WORRY ABOUT! ZANE!? AARON?! WHAT!?

If I choose..I might hurt one of them..and I dont want that.. Zane..Im worried about zane

Speaking of Zane...
Of course...ZANE! HOW CAN I FORGET! I HAVE TO GO TO HIS HOUSE!... but...wouldnt that be awkward when I go to his house..because of what happened yesterday...

*flashback*

"And this..shouldnt be in it too..."
I took off his cover on his nose and mouth..

I saw his left eye...it was purple..and his brow..has a scar in it...

I pushed him on his bed making me be on top of him..and kissed him...

*end of flashback*

My heart turned crazy again..
Thinking about Zane..just..I dont know..it just....make me feel something weird in me..like..what is it..

Oh Irene! Please show me whats wrong with my stupid heart..

I should get dressed...

~A hippo appeared and skipped time..Aphmaus done dressing~

Okay..Im done..Now..I have A purple tank top on and jean(s) shorts on..I pulled my hair in to a half ponytail half down..

Now to Zane's house...I almost forgot that I left my Flarity and my tea set in his house..

I ran to his house...then looked at the window...

A tear fell on my cheeck..I dunno why in the world of Irene...Im crying..I just saw Sasha and Zane holding hands thats all....Zane is obvious that he is blushing while Sasha's head is lying on his shoulder and they are holding hands..Whats wrong about that..Zane is happy.. WHY AM I CRYING!!??

I ran back to my house.. I was out of breath..I stared at the door...tears kept on falling like rain.. I turned around then I sat down on one of the stairs..Wiping my face is no use..tears kept falling and falling..its like it doesnt have an end to it...

I give up wiping my face..Im just gonna play on the snow..Still sitting down..I wrote something on the snow using index finger..I was looking at the distance while I was writing something..After I wrote 'it' I looked at it..I wrote...

Zane....

WAIT WHAT??
I brushed the snow away using my hands...

I was just staring at the road for a really long time.. Then I saw two familliar figures.. Swinging their hands back and forth..Zane and Zasha..They were walking on the side walk..Then Zane looked at me...I remember those eyes..They were glittering when I kissed him..And..his eyes is glittering now..

I stood up and trying to open the door quickly..I facepalm my self in my mind..Im so dumb..ITS LOCKED APHMAU! LOCKED! So I quickly grabbed my keys from my pocket..and opened the door... I ran inside.. and sat on the couch near the window then I stared at the window..I still see the figures I saw earlier...My heart was crushing to pieces as I kept on watching them..The figures dissapeared..but I still stared outside...

I was staring there for a long tume...but I didnt notice until Kawaii~chan came..
"Aphmau~Senpai?, You were staring on the window for 5 hours straight..Is something wrong? Kawaii~chan wants to know.." Kawaii~chan said..Then she turned me around gently..then hugged me.... I cried my heart out once she hugged me.. Its like..Im crying my pain out..though I dont know the reason...I still cried..

"Nya?What happened Aphmau~Senpai?..Tell Kawaii~chan... My ears are open.."

"I-I dont know Kawaii~chan..It just hurts...My chest hurts..I cant breathe properly.."

"Is it about boys? Is Aphmau~senpai liking two boys at the same time?.." She said curiously..Then I just nodded..She gasped..Then I cried more..

I just cant take the pain anymore...Liking two guys...Do I even like one of them? Who would I choose...Aaron is cool with everything and he is a very close close friend...but Zane..He is my bestfriend..and I dont wanna hurt neither of them...

Why is it so hard to choose?
Oh Irene..Please help me..

Later on.. I took a walk around the neighbor hood.. still thinking about Zane..and Sasha..

I was looking on the floor and I stumbled in to someone.. I looked up.. and it was Zane..

"Aphmau... I need to talk to you.."

A/N

Oh no..APHMAU!!

Sasha! Why are you flirting with Zane? ZANEMAU MUST HAPPEN!!

~Sayonara Mina~