Leaving me breathless (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 6

(Alec's POV)

I couldn't believe it. Collin kissed me. Collin kissed me on my lips, on my face, right below my nose. It actually happend. I always knew he had a talent at kissing.

We were both staring at each other. Like we couldn't believe what happend.

"Collin......you are one hell of a kisser." I thought i should at least lighten the mood a little bit. I gave him a little laugh.

But my laugh didn't last very long. The look on his face made my heart drop to the center of the earth. He looked so disgusted with what we just did. I went to go grab his hand. But he completely rejected it. I couldn't believe how he was acting towards me. He jumped off the bed and ran downstairs. I heard his car pull out of the driveway. His tires were screeching as if he couldnt get away fast enough.

I felt so broken. I understand he is confused with his sexuality but does he have to shut me out and act like im a freak.

I tried calling and texting him at least 30 times. As usual his phone is off. He really shouldn't have a phone. He never uses it.

I layed in my bed for the entire rest of the day. Checking my phone every four seconds. Always nothing. I couldn't form an emotion. I felt happy because I finally got to kiss the guy I have been completely crushing on. I feel shocked, scared, suprised, angry. Any emotion you can think of. And I have no idea how I'm going to be able to even look at him in english tomorrow.

Before i knew it the sun had gone down and my room had gone completly dark. I havent left the position on my bed since Collin had left. I heard my door slowly creek open.

"Honey? How was your day? You havent come down for dinner."

"Im not hungry mom. I dont want to talk about it." She was silent for a little bit. Then i felt the left side of my bed sink down. She was sitting on my bed.

"Alec you have always been able to tell me anything now what is going on? This isnt like you." I got up from my laying position and looked her in the eyes. The light from the hallway was shining on my face. She could see my eyes were all puffy and there was dried tears all down my cheeks. She gave me an 'im sorry' look and opened her arms for a hug. I rested my head on her shoulder and broke down into tears again. I was balling. I couldnt control it. She stroked her hand on my head and rocked me back and forth.

"Collin..kissed me today, mom." I could barely say it with me crying so hard.

"Alec, explain to me what happend today." I told her everything from when she left to when Collin left me all alone in my room. When i finally finished talking i looked up at my mom and i couldnt explain what she was thinking. I don't know ehat im going to do at school tomorrow......

(Collin's POV)  

"Collin......you are one hell of a kisser." Immediatly after he said that it hit me. I just kissed a guy, but im straight. Aren't I? I had to leave. I needed to think about what I really want. All i could think of right now was to get out of there and see Talia. Maybe being with her could fix my confusion. But before i left i saw the look on Alec's face. He look like i just killed a puppy right in front of him. I wanted to comfort him. Make that look go away. I was the cause of that look. I had to leave.

I drove straight to Talia's house. Really hoping she could help with all of this.

She didn't live very far away from Alec's house. I parked in her driveway and ran up to her room. School was already done and i didn't have to worry about her parents because they were always gone at work. I opened her door and i found her in shorts and a tank top just laying in bed.

She looked at me and got up slowly walking to me. As soon as she was close enough to me i slammed my lips against hers. She wrapped her arms against my neck and wrapped her legs around my waist. I grabbed her ass and I walked over to her bed. We were getting really hot and steamy, but there was one problem. All i could think about was Alec. His soft lips. His gentle touch. Wishing it was his arms wrapped around my neck. What is going on with me?