What If...

I Needed You

Rihanna and her mother land at the airport and sees Mama J waiting there for them by the car. Rihanna gets in first hooping to see Chris, but he's not in there. He mother gets in behind her and then Mama J. After they are seated and he car pulls off Rihanna asks, "Where Chris? I thought he'd be here."

Mama J says, "He's at the house waiting for us Dr. Nancy is there also, the therapist. Were all going to talk to her today together and get through all of this as a family."

"How is he?" Rihanna asks.

"He's not good but he's going better. He just mopes around all day looking lost, giving the walls blank stares. We try talking to him but it's like he doesn't even hear us."

"wow, do you think he will talk to me?"

"I don't know but we'll have to see."

They arrive at the house and Rihanna walks through the door first. Chris is sitting in the chair in front of the window staring out of it blankly like Mama J said he does. "Hey Chris, i'm back." She says. He doesn't move not even to turn his head and look at her. Rihanna looks at his mother with heartbreak in her eyes. Mama J walks over and hugs her. They all sit down in the living room to discuss everything.

The therapist starts off the conversation. "I have diagnosed Chairs with bipolar disorder. He's extremely fragile and i want you all here to support him in his time of need. And i also know that you are pregnant, Rihanna so you need support too."

Rihanna nods her head, "Will he be okay?"

"Yes, If everyone makes sure he takes his medicine properly and do what he needs to do he will be fine and go back to how he was before. But don't get confused, the medicine doesn't cure his disorder it only controls him as long as he takes it correctly." says Dr. Nancy

"Will it affect the baby? Will the baby have it?"

"I can't say for sure, but it is a very big possibility that he or she may also have the disorder."

"And how long will it take for Chris to go back to normal?" Asks Mama J

"I can't answer that. The medicine should have kicked in by now, But it's up to Chris to deal with this how he wants." Dr. Nancy says with all eyes on her.

"Can yall stop talking about me like i'm not in the fucking room," all eyes quickly switches over to Chris but no one utters a sound. The room in so quiet you can hear a feather drop in the next room. There is a long pause that feels like forever before anyone else says anything.

"Chris we're sorry, we apolo-" Chris interrupts Dr. Nancy yelling and scaring everyone.

"I dont need yall bullshit ass apologies!" Chris stands up and turns around "And i dont need yall feeling sorry for me! Imma be good!" everyone is holding their breath looking at Chris in complete terror. "Im of everybody telling me what's best for me or giving me they stupid opinions on my life that i didn't ask for. They don't know me or what i've had to deal with and go threw. They don't know the shit i've seen and heard. So how the hell can they know what i need and what's good for me?Why should i give a fuck about they dumb ass opinions? They don't fucking know me!" Chris says screaming even louder. Then he falls to his knees and breaks down crying. Everyone wants to comfort him but they are scared of what he might do. Then they look at Dr. Nancy and she nods her head to Mama J saying it's okay to comfort him. Mama J gets up to hug he and tells him it's going to be okay.

Then Rihanna gets up and rushes to his side and kneels down in front of him and picks his head up holding his face and looks him in the eyes. "I'm here for you babe, I don't care what anyone has to say. Whatever the fuck you need i gotchu babe okay?" Chris nods his head and Rihanna wipes his tears away.

"Robyn i'm so sorry."

IT's okay babe, everything is going to be okay." They get up and takes Chris and puts him in bed. They come back out into the living room and sit back down.

"I think Chris really needed that and you all too. He needed to show vulnerability. He had been so strong and suppressing his feeling for years and that's not good. And he finally let that all out. When he wakes up everything will be fine and he will be back to his old self, just please make sure he takes his medicine on time everyday."

'We will doctor" Mama J says

Dr, Nancy gets up and and leaves.