Start of Something New (After Mockingjay) Book 1

Chapter 1

***Hey! Yes, I'm making a new book! I may change things up again and if i don't, I will in different scenes! So hope you enjoy!

Katniss-POV

The deaths, Prim's death, Rue's death, Thresh's death, everybody that died during the rebellion died because of me

I caused all these deaths

Why am i still living?

Peeta

Peeta is the reason I'm living

But, Peeta is being tortured

Because of me

He doesn't love me anymore, I ruined everything that was going on between us

We would've been both in love, maybe had a family if Coin rescued him first

But it doesn't matter anymore, Coins dead, and so is Snow

But i haven't seen Peeta since

He's probably very upset with me

I can tell he is trying to keep his distance from me

But i love him

He thinks it's all an act

But it's not

He doesn't see that it isn't

"I'm too late"I whisper

"It's too late to tell him that I love him"I whisper, tears streaming down my face

"Peeta.."I whisper

I close my eyes and have a breakdown

"P-Peeta, I-I Lo-love Y-You so Mu-Much"I stutter out and wish he was here to stroke my hair and tell me everything is okay

But he's not

I'm afraid of him

He knows

I look out my window and see something i didn't expect

Peeta

He's planting Primroses

But i don't run out

I fall to the ground and continue crying

"P-Prim, P-Peeta"I say

I curl up in a ball and fall asleep on the ground

Thinking about Prim

And Peeta

I wake up to a sudden scare

I hear crashing coming from next door

I look out my window

Haymitch

He's drunk

He hasn't stopped drinking

The only thing he doesn't know i know

Is i saw Effie and him kiss

I saw it with my own eyes

I knew they had feelings for each other deep down

I could see it in their faces

Since the first day

Their love is very interesting

"Haymitch"I groan and walk downstairs

I put on my coat and walk over to Haymitch's house

I bang on the door

That's the only way he's going to hear me

It takes him a few minutes before he opens the door

"Hey sweetheart, How have you been?"He asks and takes a long chug of his whiskey

"Good, till you started drinking"I say and enter his house

"You weren't even born!"He hollers as he closes the door

"Yet i still wish i wasn't"I mumble

"Why?More people would be dying right now because i don't think anybody would be braver to stop the games and kill snow"He says and gives me a smile

I smile back, "I know but i killed even more people when the games weren't even on"

"That's True, but even more people would be dyi-"Haymitch says but i cut him off

"You already said that, Haymitch"I say and chuckle

"Yeah okay, Why are you here again?"He asks

I don't even know

"I don't know"I say and walk out and wave bye to Haymitch

And that's when i see the love of my life

Planting more Primroses

He looks up and we make eye contact

They aren't the hijacked eyes

They are the Peeta ones

My Peeta

But he isn't my Peeta anymore...

"Katniss?"Peeta says and gets up

I take a step back

I'm still afraid of him

"Katniss Please, I'm not 100% hijacked anymore"He says and takes a step

"Peeta, Please"I tell him taking steps back

"Katniss..."He says a tear streams down his face

His voice filled with sadness

I can't take it anymore

Tears start flowing down as i run to Peeta and attack him with a hug

His arms wrap around my waist as my legs wrap around his

"I missed you so much, Peeta"I tell him and put my head resting on his shoulder

"I missed you too, Katniss so so much"He says and his grips tightens around me

I kiss his cheek and rest my head back on his shoulder

We just stand there

Loving each others warmth

I love him so much

My Peeta

He's back