I was Meant for You

Chapter 4

(Liv's POV)   *1 month later*
Elliott stayed at my apartment again last night. He told me he wanted to be close and finally start something between us. I wasn't sure at first by how fast it was going but I really really want to be with him. I mean we've been talking about it for a month and I figured that was long enough. We went into work together today and had stares from everyone including Cregan. "Benson...Stabler... My office now!!" Ohh boy looks like we'll be kissing our jobs goodbye. "I know that you 2 are new here and I know that you don't know the rules all that well but I need to know if you guys are a thing. Usually it's against all rules but if you are we can keep it secret for now. I know that Tucker would jump your two's ass if he found out so let me know if you guys are!" I look at Elliott and back down at our intertwined fingers below the desk and I'm the first one to speak up. "Cap it just was made official last night. We have been talking about it for a month but it's a brand new thing." Elliott smiles at me and even though I don't look at him I can still feel it. " thanks for telling me the truth...now back to work!" Captain says. I let go of El's hand and walk out and into the cribs. I go in and know that Elliott is following. I've been feeling really different since Elliott and I had sex after I fell in the bathroom. I've been dreading to tell him but I think I might possibly be pregnant. Anyways I came into the cribs cause I had the feeling that I might get sick. I half run half walk to the nearest trash can and empty all my stomach contents into it. I can feel Elliott come up behind me and he holds my hair and rubs small circles on my back. "Yup," I think to myself, "definitely pregnant....FUCK!!"  I wipe my mouth on my sleeve and sit on the nearest bunk. I feel the tears start to well up but I can't blink them back this time. I feel them start falling down my face and when Elliott asks "what's wrong?" I motion for him to sit down right next to me. "How am I going to tell him?! God Liv why were you so dumb" I ask myself before I tell him anything. Once I look up from the ground I look straight into his ocean blue eyes and forget what I was gonna say. I lean over and kiss him and then lean right back to where I was before and in that moment I remember. "El...I....I have some news.. And I know it'll be hard to take in cause it is for me but I've only just realized it." By this time I'm wheezing just to get air to fill my lungs. He grabs my by my shoulders and leans me into him and I feel safe. "Liv tell me what's wrong please?! I need to know what's up.." And he's right. He does need to know that he has a child on the way. But does he want it? Is he ready to be a dad? A dad to my child? I sure as hell hope so!! 
After a few minutes of mentally beating myself up I finally gathered up the courage to tell him. "Elliott...we're going to be parents! I promise I just found out! I knew as soon as I started throwing up what it was. I haven't taken a test yet or seen a doctor but I just know!! I'm so sorry I swear I...." He cuts me off with a deep kiss. Finally, when he breaks apart because air became an issue, he say "Liv this is so amazing!! This is the best news I've ever heard! I want this child! Don't be sorry because this is the best thing that will ever happen to us!! We're gonna stop by a store on our way home after work and we'll get you some tests. Then after we find out we'll set up an appointment!! Liv this is so great and I know it's early but I've wanted a family for a long time!! So don't be sorry cause I'm not!" And with that we walk out of the cribs and into the elevator of the 1-6 and head to the store.