Promises

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by jermainexbreezy

Dedicated to liserella

by jermainexbreezy

Alena's POV
*alarm clock goes off*
Sitting in my room. Not feeling anything that requires me to talk to people. I know that I can't give up but it's so hard. Without him I'm lost. Living without my other half. It's like my world came crashing down and my heart shattered into a million pieces. If I could do anything to bring him back I would. I wish it was my life for his. It's hard to not lose faith because I'm like why me God ? Why him ? But I know God wouldn't give me anything I can't handle and I know that he's in a better place. But anywhere but earth would be best for him because of the pain he suffered, the pain he lived through his whole life. So is it selfish to want him here even though he was in pain. I even prayed for God to take him out of his misery but when he did I guess I wasn't truly prepared for that day, the day that he would be gone forever, the day that I could never speak to him again. The day I lost him.

*Flashback*
I started my water and I scanned through my closet for what I was about to wear. I had prepared my letter to my family to say my goodbyes. Finally, adding bubbles to my bath water. I sprinkled rose petals and lit candles along side of the tub. Stripping myself bare I took a sleeping pill because lately I haven't been sleeping and slide myself in the warm water. I found my playlist with the most soothing music. Enjoying my playlist I get my phone and turned to Snapchat to show my followers that I was enjoying a nice warm bubble bath. After posting the snap. I instantly get snaps back asking who did such a sweet gesture for me since it looked romantic. I chuckled and put my phone down. When promises by jhene Aiko came on and it changed my whole mood. I wanted to change the song to avoid getting more depressed than what I already was. As Jhenè's angelic voice blared through the speaker, tears flowed down my face as I began to drift off to sleep. Not being able to control it or fight it. I started slipping down into the water realizing that today wasn't the day I wanted to die.