Amity (phan)

Chapter 3: Simple Realisations.

Word count: 1490.

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I waved Dan goodbye and closed the door to my house. I closed my eyes and breathed in the smell of my home. The walk back from Chris' wasn't the best, if I'm honest. Dan and I barely talked, we barely even looked at each other. I wonder if Dan is mad at me for kissing him. But on the other hand, it was just a dare. There's no reason for him to be mad at me, and if he is then he'll get over it soon. Or that's what I hope.

I walked into the living room of my dark house. I hoped for someone to be home, but notice I'm all alone when I see that the place is just as I left it this evening. I never like it when I'm alone. Thoughts run through my mind, not the happy kind of thoughts. I take out my phone as I walk into the kitchen. The room is dark and smells of soap, probably from when the maid cleaned it this morning.

For some reason, I couldn't forget about how Dan and I kissed tonight. I mean, if it would have been any of those morons I probably wouldn't have minded. But Dan is my best friend, and I can't simply forget the way I felt when he kissed me for a second time. And also the fact that this was my first kiss. My best friend Dan was the first person to ever kiss me.

I read the clock on the oven, 12:27 AM. I laid my phone on the kitchen counter and took out a cereal bowl, pouring some cereal and some milk. I start to check all my social media apps whilst I munch on my Lucky Charms. I scrolled down my multiple feeds for a few more minutes, and decide to go up to my room when my bowl is empty and all my feeds have been scrolled.

I heard someone knock on the door and I don't even have to question who it is before opening it- Dan. He's probably here to talk about what happened tonight. I head to the door and open it, and no one but Dan himself was stood there. "Hey, what's up?" I say as I smile at my friend. He doesn't look as happy as I do. "Hi. I wasn't that tired so I decided to come spend some time with my best friend." He grins cheekily before entering my unlighted house.

"Why is everything so dark? Don't you wanna turn on the light?" He asked as he walked towards the only source of light; the kitchen. I shrugged. "I don't know, I like the dark. It relaxes me." He looked at me before grinning. I recognised that grin. He wanted something. "What have you done," I ask the grinning boy, before he heads out of the kitchen, taking my box of Lucky Charms with him. I follow shortly behind him. He heads towards the stairs and goes up, but suddenly stops. He turns around with a spin, our noses brushing slightly. He's stood extremely close to me, his eyes widening at the realisation of the proximity between us. We're both still stood on the staircase of my house, Dan a couple stairs above me.

"Are your parents home?" He asks as he licks his lips. I furrow my eyebrows before replying, "I don't think so, no. Why are you asking?" Dan is acting weird. Too weird. He normally never mentions my parents, he knows they're never home. He also knows that even if they were home they wouldn't mind having him over. He shrugs and continues to climb the stairs. He turns to the left, entering my games room. It's where I keep all of my game consoles and video games.

He walks towards the purple beanbag that's stood in the middle of the room. He drops on top and of it and pats the red one next to him. "Care to join me on my midnight video game haul?" I nod and walk towards him, dropping on the beanbag just like he did a few minutes ago. He hands me a controller and begins to talk about which video games we should play. I stare at him for a while, blankly. He stops talking and his smile drops.

"What?" He asks me, before looking down at his lap. I decide to shrug off the way he's acting, it's probably my imagination anyways. "Which video game do you want to play?" I ask as he eats a few of the lucky charms spread in his palm.

"Okay, I'm gonna be blunt. I'm not actually here to play video games. I wanna talk about what happened today at Chris'. Is that okay with you?" I chuckle at this, but I start to get nervous. Why would he want to discuss the kiss? "Why wouldn't it be?" I say coolly as I sit up in my bean bag and turn towards my friend.

"Okay, so I just wanted to let you know that I'm sorry for stealing your first kiss. I was a bit drunk and I wasn't thinking properly, and I was just trying to please Chris and the lads. You know, give them a good laugh." Dan stared at me for a while before laughing awkwardly and looking away through the window. "Dan, look at me." I said softly, and he turned to me slowly before looking up into my eyes, as if he was ashamed of what he had done.

"There's nothing to be sorry about. I'm not angry at you; I know it was a dare. Plus, you're my best friend, I wouldn't get mad at you for something as small as this." I smiled at him and I saw his eyes soften; he looked relieved with what I had just told him. We looked each other for a few more seconds before he opened up his mouth, looking a bit hesitant before asking, "But did you like it? The kiss, I mean." He licked his lips and looked anxious. How the hell am I supposed to answer that?

"Well," I said before mimicking his actions and licking my lips. "I guess it was good? I don't know everything was so quick I barely had time to experience it." I said quickly, before looking around my room trying to find something, anything, that could save me from this situation.

We sat in an awkward silence for a few more minutes, both lost in our thoughts. But that silence was ripped suddenly when Dan looked back at me. "Would you like to repeat the kiss?" He asked quietly, looking down at his lap whilst his cheeks changed from his usual tan-shade into multiple pinks and reds. My eyes widened at his comment, blushing up until my ears. "W-what?" I asked shyly, my voice almost breaking. My heart was racing and I felt like I was about to puke. For the first time in my life, I felt uncomfortable and strange with my best friend.

"Y'know, the kiss. Your first kiss. I feel like I didn't do a great job when I -uh- kissed you back at Chris' place, and I feel like your first kiss is something you should remember. So, I was thinking that I should -uh- give you a better one?"

I looked down at my lap as I thought about what Dan had just said. However something must've been wrong with me because I soon found myself crashing my lips with his. He kissed me softly, as if he was scared of hurting me.

Suddenly, I hear the front door open and voices coming from downstairs. My parents' voices. I pull back from Dan quickly and shoot up, not looking back at him. He mimics my actions and follows me as I head towards the door, opening it and rushing downstairs, not looking back at Dan.

I greet my parents with a smile, glancing at the clock. 02:47.

I should be happy that my parents are home, and I should be asking them about their work, or just act as the good son that worries about their parents' live. But the only thought that's running through my mind is oh god oh god I kissed Dan again.

And suddenly, this night had turned into a spiral of misunderstood thoughts and feelings.

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(AN) HI DAN HERE IM SO SORRY THIS IS GOING SO SLOW AND IM SORRY THE STORY IS SO CHEESY BUT DONT WORRY IT WONT BE LIKE THIS ITS JUST THE BEGINNING THE STORY IS ACTUALLY MORE INTERESTING THAN THEM BEING WEIRD AND AWKWARD WITH EACH OTHER. AND IM SORRY IF SOMETHINGS WRONG I DIDNT HAVE TIME TO PROOF READ THIS SO IF SOMETHINGS WRONG JUST COMMENT AND ILL FIX IT THANKS :))))

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