Dear Diary,
today I saw my little girl.
She has blue eyes and brown hair. She reminds me of you, Louis. She's beautiful. Her mother dropped her off at my house without saying a word to me. I could already see the flashing of cameras on my street. I can already next weeks healdlines will worry you. But that's okay.
You feel nothing for me. Only for her. I'm was nothing but a phase. She's the one you want. Not me..
But I never said I still don't want you.
It maybe was a phase for you, but to me, it was much more. It was the romance of my life.
I remember the day I was going to propose to you. It was the last day that I was actually truly happy.
Harry was dressed in a suit, it was the year 2019. He was ready to propose, to come out, to finally be free. He arrived at Louis seperate flat and opened the door, hoping no body was in sight. He patted his pocket to make sure the box with the ring was still there.
"Louis?" Harry whispered quietly. "Louis?" He said a little louder. "Oh, Hi Harry" Louis said giving him a smile. "Hi love." Harry responded. "Why are you dressed all nice for?" Louis questioned. "I was just wondeirng if we cou-" "I'm sorry mate, I've got a date with Eleanor."
Date with Eleanor.
It was supposed to be their special night.
It was supposed to be the night Harry finally proposed.
"Any reason you can't cancel?" Harry said rolling his eyes. "I have to go." Louis said grabing his coat and fixing his hair in the mirror. "Since when do you care how you look in front of Eleanor?" Harry asked raising his voice. He was angry. "Harry, calm down dude." Louis said narrowing his eyes at Harry. "Dude?" Did you forget that we're in a relationship and that today is the day we made plans to go out to dinner and finally come out?" Harry screamed with anger. "Harry.. I just don't want to." Louis said with hsi eyes locke don the ground. "Don't want to what? Come out as being gay? Are you really ashamed? Louis, you've got to be fucking kidding me." Harry said running his hands through his hair. "Yes, that's it.. I'm sorry." Louis repsonded. "Well, don't fucking be. We're done." Harry said not knowing what was coming out of his mouth. "Harr-" "No." Harry growled slamming the door to Louis flat shut and driving away.
He parked at the edge of a nearby clift. Getting out of the car and taking the box out of his pocket, the velet box with the beauitful ring inside that had the engraving: Harry and Louis, forever and always<3.'
He threw the ring at the end of the clift, hearing it fall down and collasps. As his tears of pain soaked his entire face.
I remember. The saddest day of my life.
- Love, Harry xoxo.
Harry clutched his chest, as he remembered the memory. The memory of pain. Only one sentence made him the saddest person on the planet. "I don't want to come out yet."
