MAY BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME!! Talks about self harm!!
Is anyone reading this recovering from self harm? *Raises hand*
If you are I'm very proud of you. I'm proud of you no matter where you are right now mentally and physically.
I've been clean for almost 4 months. It's been difficult. Most days I don't even think if it. Every once in awhile though I think about that time again. I want to cut again or do something.
When I used to self harm I used a razor. I also would use scissors because those wouldn't leave scars or scratches that wouldn't heal within a few days. I would also do little things that would curve the urge of self harming like placing my hand under a bowl that wasn't burning hot but hotter then normal. It was pain I was inflicting on myself and it kept me from using razors. I would also scratch myself with my finger nails. It's these subtle things I didn't realize I would do at the time but realize now that I was trying to keep my self from doing worse.
I'm okay now. I've been sad lately though and I've felt pretty alone to be honest. My friends don't understand and if I tell my mom she'll blab it to the whole world and that's all I hear about for the next few months.
I don't know who to turn to right now. I'll be okay and I know that I just feel alone. I'll get better. I'm too far into recovery to start over now.
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Midnight Thoughts
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