Coming to terms

Chapter 1

I have a secret. It's something that I wasn't so sure of at first,but now there's absolutely no denying it. I'm in love with my best friend.
You'd think it's a good thing right? "Oh I've found true love it's going to be amazing and we'll be together forever and ever". Wrong.
It's not just that I don't think my friend has feelings for me,I don't think she's into that type of thing. You see,I'm a girl. My best friend is a girl. Do you see what I'm trying to say here? I don't think she plays for the same team.
So,I'm just sitting in my college's cafeteria freaking out about something that really,deep down I've known about for months.
I was staring at the wall at the end of the cafeteria,daydreaming,when suddenly there was a hand waving around in front of me.
"Earth to Jasmine."
I looked up and it was her,the girl who makes my heart beat a thousand times faster. My best friend. Azalea.
"The apocalypse has started. You're one of the last humans alive,it's your duty to save the earth. Do you copy?" Azalea joked.
I smiled at her. "I'm here"
She sat down in front of me and unpacked her food,tuna sandwich,my favorite. She had cut the sandwich in half and slid one half to me and dug into the other. I couldn't help but stare at her. Even when she was eating,she was beautiful. She looked up at me with her mouth full and gave me a look that asked "what?". I shook my head,thanked her for the food,and started eating. I hoped that eating would keep my mouth busy enough to not say anything stupid.
I've never felt like this before. I've never had butterflies because of my best friend. I didn't know what to say or do. This is the kind of thing you talk to your best friend about. Just my luck.
A thought came to mind but I quickly dismissed it. It was crazy. I couldn't tell her...especially not here. But I hated feeling this way. I hated feeling this way with her,like I couldn't talk to her.
"You realize you've been holding that sandwich up to your mouth for about five minutes now?"
I snapped out of my thoughts and put the sandwich down.
"Sorry"
"What's on your mind,kiddo?"
Yeah,she called me kiddo. She does that,and I just realized how much I love when she calls me that.
"Nothing."
"That's impossible." She said,taking a sip from her water bottle. "The human mind can't not be thinking of anything."
"I was just thinking about this book I was reading last night."
She squinted her eyes -those beautiful blue eyes that made the sky look like nothing,the blue eyes that told stories all on their own,the blue eyes that longed for adventure,the eyes I loved staring into-and pursed her lips.
"Why do I not believe you?"
"Why would I lie to you?"
"Maybe you're hiding something from me."
"What would I hide from you? You're my best friend,I tell you everything."
She was still looking at me through squinted eyes.
"Hmmm...okay. Fair enough."
We looked at the clock and it was time to make our way to the next class. We both groaned and cleared up our table then threw our trash away and headed off to calculus.
1 miserable hour later,class was dismissed and we headed to our dorm room. (Yeah,we live together.)